I Am Going To Do What I Wan’t To Do Regardless

Go Back To Being Normal

Proverbs 12:9 New International Version

9 Better to be a nobody and yet have a servant than pretend to be somebody and have no food.

Personal Decisions

          As a black woman, I have been doing a lot of thinking and contemplating. I have had to make some tough decisions that I know would benefit me in the long run. The ultimate goal is to experience success, and success is what I am after. With that being said, I learned that as a black woman I have had to make some choices that benefit me and how I think, and will ultimately put me into a better position.

          The image of a black woman is not welcomed in ministry, and they don’t want to see a black woman with a family and with a husband. It is interesting to watch the narrative of a woman who is not black being pushed as a picture perfect mother, while the black women in ministry claim to be masculine or desiring women or prideful or not wanting to be a mother.

          So I made the decision that I was going to give birth. I don’t really care about ministry, and I don’t care about what people in ministry think. I made the choice not to put my life on hold because people in the church don’t want to see a black woman with a husband and family as a main attraction or event.

As A Image

          I view myself as a content creator that is Christian. Not a influencer and not someone who is actively speaking or preaching because I don’t want to. I don’t want to travel and speak because I don’t want to deal with the stupidity that arise in church due to racial systems and racial organizations. How I feel, if the church only wants white women to speak then let them have that. That has nothing to do with me and I wont argue about it. I wont waste my time trying to MLK anything. I wont waste my time marching and fighting for you to see what I am saying, I am just going to move on.

          So I wrote this for the other black women in ministry. Stop trying to force your idea’s on a sector that does not want you there. Why waste your time? There are so many brown opportunities that will benefit you.. So move on and stop crying.

          Now, as for me I am a image. Not a influencer, not a preacher, and not a speaker. I am a image. I do what I want to do and I am not waiting for anyone to see what I am saying. I pave my own routes and pave my own roads. I don’t care who does not like it I am still going to do what I want to do regardless. So as I recover, just know that I am very aware of the racial biased that occurs in ministry and I understand very well. I told God I am not a cotton-picking prophet, and if people want to see a cotton picking prophet then they have to go get somebody else. Am I conventional? No. Am I going to have more children before marriage? Absolutely I am. Because I don’t care what the church thinks and I am going to do what I want to do. I am not waiting 10 years to marry somebody because I am black and a prophet, but instead I am going to do what I want to do.

          So in the future, when you reference this blog post know that I don’t give a f****. I don’t care what you think. I don’t care what you believe in. I don’t care what you say God is saying, because you’re probably lying on God name anyways like you all always do. I don’t care if you think I am anointed and need to wait for a husband, because I already told God what I am going to do. I don’t think it’s fair that a white woman in ministry can have a husband and go public as a influencer, but as a black woman they want you to have nappy hair claiming to be prideful and saying you can’t have a kid. So I made the decision to rebel against the racial systems in place in ministry, and do what I want to do and I don’t care who does not like it. Yes, I have to stay in church because God has forced me. But other than that, do not be surprised when you see me pregnant as a minister.

Love,

The Black Ghetto Du-Rag Wearing Queen Diamond