What To Do When Someone Does Not Love You

What To Do When Someone Does Not Love You

He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” – Revelation 21:4 

Truth Be Told

When I was younger I went through some things. I dated men that I really did not like and I was not attracted to because I was trying to satisfy everyone else’s opinion of the type of woman that I should be or the type of man that I should date. Well that did not turn out well. 

  • One – I am very private, and I had to realize that when people were trying to get me to open up, it was because they wanted some type of leverage to use against me when I was down. 
  • Two – There were certain things that bothered me in regard to the type of man that I wanted. I wanted a very strong man and I liked rough men. I could not find that in the church because the men were weird and I could not deal with that. 
  • Three – God told me I had to stay in the church and he would send the right man that was good for me. 

If You Do Not Have Love Then You Do Not Have Anything 

I am 27, and in three years I will be 30. I now realize how important love is. As a woman I really do love the essence of love and it is something that I need because that is how God wired me. I love candles , the peace and serenity that comes with love, and I LOVE flowers. God really made me feminine. Moral of the story do not let society or the church strip away your identity as a woman. If you desire a man then God will give you a man because that is how God made you. 

Love Susanna ❤ 

God told me to delete my social media

God told me to delete my social media. So on here you will see my own personal tweets, my personal insta pictures , and my own personal Facebook post. So there you have it folks below is some picturessss of me pregnant and you will have some moment of messages because some post will be just me tweeting. Muah !

This me pregnant I was a thickums I want another baby so bad ! I keep praying and praying ! But this made me really regret my decision with my first baby daddy. Me and him don’t really talk but everyday I wish I made a different choice. He’s some semi-tik tok famous guitar player that all these females want but I decided to just let that go because well.. he wants something else besides me. I think most women have to know when to let things go you can’t make a man be attracted to you or want you.. you just have to let it go and move on. But if anything I would tell a young woman do not abort your baby because a man does not love you and he does not want you, that decision was the worst mistake of my life because even if he did not want or love me I know my baby did and that is very hard to deal with. It’s not easy seeing little light curly head boys running around because I know that is what my baby would have looked like. Young women learn from my mistakes.. if a man does not love you that is NOT a reason to abort your baby.. keep your baby. Everyday I think about how old my baby would have been. Even now I deal with the grief by myself. There are some stages you go through like sometimes you just want to talk to the father because it still hurts out of grief but don’t do that, I did that it only makes it worse. I think the psychology of reconnecting with the father after a abortion is that you want to feel,see, and hear that person because it’s the closet you will get to your actual baby. But again don’t do it because when they reject you it’s even more painful . Just take it to God !

This is me when I served in the Marines around 2017 .. I can’t believe I enlisted in the marines almost 10 years ago. Lol I am so glad to not be in because I hated it lol ! They were racist ! Lol

This me before the baby … Lord losing weight after a baby is warfare ! I have gotten so thick I don’t know what to do ! God help me ! I think was Fall 2020

This is a selfie around 2021 … I was a new mommy and battling depression. My baby was born premature and I almost had to drop out of college because she was so sick ! I was paying all her bills by myself with a baby who had a hole in her throat ! I was very depressed but God is faithful.

Looking at this photo makes me have mommy grief lol I wish I was this skinny again . I was a XS now…. I can’t even say Lol but this was the worst job of my life lol.. no the marines was the worst this HAD to be second ! Lol

Sunday Sermon : You Control Your Own Home – Joshua 24:15

You Control Your Own Home 

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But if you refuse to serve the LORD, then choose today whom you will serve. Would you prefer the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates? Or will it be the gods of the Amorites in whose land you now live? But as for me and my family, we will serve the LORD.” – Joshua 24:15 

Continuing My Sermon’s In Written Form 

So if you do not know I have been labeled as a threat to society and a terrorist on twitter because I said Jesus Is Lord and served in the military honorably as a veteran. Not only that Youtube has given me a strike, locked me out from editing my channel, and is trying to gain access to my personal phone number. Youtube constantly deletes my views and then they say that I am leaking medical misinformation from talking about Joe Biden & Covid – 19. I prophesied one day before it was released that we were involved in chemical warfare accurately and Youtube deleted and took down the video. 

Now Youtube knows that I am not afraid of them and I am not afraid of the government because they are cowards with guns, but remember that I am trained to.. 

But that bigger picture is that from the government locking people out of their bank accounts, delaying paying people their hard earned wages of income, and mandating a vaccine is that the principalities in the federal government understand that YOU control your OWN home. If YOU do not want homosexuality in YOUR OWN HOME then it will not be there. If you want to start a church in your OWN home then you will. If you want to hold a BIBLE STUDY in your OWN home then that will happen. So the federal government is trying everything they can to seep into the personal homes of the people  because they know that you control your own environment inside of your home. 

Joshua 24:15 says, “But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD”.

Now, truth be told although God converted me from atheism I do love the Lord. I know personally that God is really because I experienced his grace, love, and his mercy. I am a Female Apostle Paul. I will not bow. I must be obedient and carry the gospel of Jesus Christ even if it is by written form. Now my church will be opening soon The Prince of Peace Oasis. I am working on a different way to expand the gospel of Jesus Christ and not solely rely on YouTube. You will not see most of the preaching content on YouTube but on different platforms such as this blog, my church website, or Rumble (I just started). During this I remember The three Hebrew Boys in the fire, I remember Daniel in the lion’s den, and I remember all that God has brought me out of. If you are being persecuted by the Federal Government keep going and I pray God’s protection and his blood over your life. I prophesy that you will not be killed and you will not be framed for a crime that you did not commit. I prophesy that God will pave the way for your truth to outlast the lie In Jesus Name. 

Apostle Diamond Chessier-Jackson 

Hello To Prince Of Peace Oasis Patmos , Greece ! 

Hello To Prince Of Peace Oasis Patmos , Greece ! 

Although we are a small community we are a strong community for Christ Jesus ! As you join our community online as your leader and spiritual covering I pray that God would protect you from every unclean thing. I pray that God would minister to you and uphold you with his unchanging hand. In Jesus Name, I pray thank God.. Amen. 

Psalm 20:7

New International Version Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
    but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.

Apostle Diamond Chessier-Jackson

Hello To Jesus Is Lord Christ Chapel in Israel ! 

Hello To Jesus Is Lord Christ Chapel in Israel ! 

Although we are a small community we are a strong community for Christ Jesus ! As you join our community online as your leader and spiritual covering I pray that God would protect you from every unclean thing. I pray that God would minister to you and uphold you with his unchanging hand.  Israel was deemed God’s Holy Nation and it was named after Jacob and was ruled by King David. With so many threats and rumors of war it must be horrible and frightening. Yet, with God you do not have to fear. God did not give you a spirit of fear but of power and love and of a sound mind. God bless and keep you. May his face shine upon you and be gracious towards you. In Jesus Name, I pray thank God.. Amen. 

Isaiah 26:3

King James Version – Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

Apostle Diamond Chessier-Jackson 

Hello To Prince Of Peace Oasis in Seychelles , Africa ! 

Hello To Prince Of Peace Oasis in Seychelles , Africa ! 

Although we are a small community we are a strong community for Christ Jesus ! As you join our community online as your leader and spiritual covering I pray that God would protect you from every unclean thing. I pray that God would minister to you and uphold you with his unchanging hand.  Israel was deemed God’s Holy Nation and it was named after Jacob and was ruled by King David. With so many threats and rumors of war it must be horrible and frightening. Yet, with God you do not have to fear. God did not give you a spirit of fear but of power and love and of a sound mind. God bless and keep you. May his face shine upon you and be gracious towards you. In Jesus Name, I pray thank God.. Amen. 

Isaiah 26:3

King James Version – Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

Apostle Diamond Chessier-Jackson