Another Year That I Suffered
So I am going to do this new method of not pretending, because not pretending is going to help those women who are being abused not commit suicide because of what they are going through. So… today is Mother’s day and my husband confronts me about a blog post saying that I am doing things behind his back and playing him behind his back… laughing out loud… Let’s go down the list of what he has done to me.
- While I was pregnant he threatened to choke me out on my birthday and I had to jump out of a moving car on the highway.
- When I gave birth I found all types of stuff in his phone and right after pushing out his baby.
- The police came to my house because he bought stolen stuff off the street after I told him not to and he almost got arrested .
- He is the reason I did not graduate this year.
- I had to work four jobs after my daughter was born and never got to heal after having a baby because he would not be a man and take care of her financially. He was so concerned about his other daughter and I did not want to take care of mine. He was giving to two other kids that did not belong to him and did not want to help me with mine.
- When my daughter was first born he would not help me financially and I took care of her by myself without his financial help. Matter of fact I had to walk in the cold with my newborn baby by myself because she needed food and a nice woman saw us and pulled over and helped us. She told me her child’s father jumped her with his brother as well so she said to keep going basically and I was not alone.
- I have to pull his teeth for him to pay bills, but he put two kids that do not belong to him through college.
- His daughter tried to ruin my daughter’s first birthday because the attention was not on her.
- His ex-wife is functioning cocaine addict and lies on me constantly to cover up the fact that she is hooked on drugs
- Oh but let’s really get into it. He let his daughter be friends with a woman’s daughter who wanted to have a threesome with him, but thank God I have the Holy Ghost and after investigating I found out the truth.
- Now let’s realllllyyyy get into it. Let’s talk about how he told me his own mother was acting gay towards me and she set me up to be jumped by her son ( who also was jealous that I did not want him & another female that was also angry that I did not want her) and called the police on me, tried to take me to court so I could not enter a house that I LEASED and not her, all because I did not want to have sex with them .
- Let’s talk about how I was pregnant , gave him money for his business, and was there working with him and I stood outside the door ( he did not know I was there ) and listened to another woman flirting with him while I was pregnant.
- Let’s talk about all the times he had me in the hospital.
- Let’s talk about all the crazy stuff he did to me.
- He won’t watch my baby so I can lose weight.
- When I try to go to the gym he sits there and argues with me so that I can’t work out and get back in shape.
This is the crazy thing. This fool has done all of this and is angry because I am attracted to someone else. I have helped him through racism, gave him money to help his business, and I am constantly going through warfare and dealing with his crazy mess and he has the nerve to feel some type of way and asking if I am letting a police come over when he not her. Boy please I wish he was so I could escape his crazy behind. Now , my husband seems to have a problem with someone I was entangled with in the past named Keenan. Well let me clear that up, no I am not attracted to keenan anymore. But I do have to say that there was a time that I was pregnant by him so that other people do not lie. I said what I said. Listen. I truly believe that one day I am going to be the happiest woman on Mother’s Day.
I believe that one day I will enjoy waking up and be happy with someone that truly will be a good man that I desire. I regret my marriage because he was a mistake. I told him that. I do not know why he is acting shocked. I do not know why he is playing the victim when I already told him that I wanted a divorce over and over again. He does stupid stuff that makes me look bad. I have a whole court case and he does something stupid like buying stolen stuff off the street and having the police come looking for him. I am tired of dealing with men who have been raised by failed mothers. I am not your mother and I do not have to put up with stupidity. If you keep making dumb decision’s bad things will happen to you. Now my husband is almost 40 and I am tired of dealing with dumb stuff. I said what I said. Now I am a real woman. Now , you know I have a church. Look, I am a good pastor married to a miserable and horrible husband. You can come hear me speak if you want but my husband is a terrible husband. I am not hiding anything, I am telling the entire truth. I made a mistake. I was trying to escape my childhood and married someone that has a family just like my childhood, that is a whole other mental battle I deal with. Moral of the story is do not let anyone who abuses you make you feel bad for wanting to be free.
Real As Can Be,