January Blues

January Blues

               It is the first month of 2026 and my heart weeps as I see obituary’s all over the internet. So many young people have died and the truth of the matter is this is a perilous time right now. I am very real and honest. I can say that I am wrestling bout’s of depression.

               My daughter is autistic and she is beautiful, loving, kind, and amazing (Ruth). I can’t find a job that is willing  to work with the schedule of a single mother with a special needs child. I have to pay rent. People have betrayed me. People have lied on me. I am in a 3-year battle of getting a divorce. Needless to say I am tired , but I keep pressing on.

               I want you to know that if you have to take a week to just cry you are not being lazy. I think 2026 is my year to cry. I think that I just need to cry in order to release all of the pain that I have gone through over the last few years.

               So now I am not in ministry, but I do post biblical content. I had to step away for my mental health, peace, and sanity. I should have wished you a happy new year and I am sorry for the delay.

               Life has valley’s. the church needs to stop pretending and be real that there are valleys in life. I feel valley low. No I am not happy. No I am not okay. No I do not have family to help me. But I keep going. Sometimes I feel like a zombie because I know that I have to press on despite what people think. So, if 2026 is your year to cry welp join the club. Because this year is not peaches and cream. It is a lot of tough things going on and you are not alone.

Queen Diamond

Diploma in Small Business Management

Psalms 147:3

He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.