Dealing With Regrets

• Ezekiel 2:5-7

As you all know I am getting a divorce and my case in New Bern has been dismissed. As I am rebuilding my life I can honestly say I regret a lot of things . I regret the Marines , I regret joining church in North Carolina , I regret getting married , I regret ministry…. I regret a lot. I realized that at 28 years old , it is time to live my LIFE the way I want to. I am not Faith walking anymore. After a certain age Faith walking has to stop and reality has to set in. I don’t have time to make spontaneous decisions because I have a child and that would be irresponsible. God tells me to make music I say no every time . Don’t really care anymore , because I have no desire for God to use me and I do not want God to use me . But I said from the jump , one thing I will be is honest. I am one of those people that God has FORCED to go to church and do ministry . Do I want to be in church ? NO . DO I want a relationship with God ? No . But I understand that God is a real force that is holding me back from what I really wanted to be which was a R&B singer . That’s the whole truth. I wanted to sing R&B I never wanted to sing gospel. I had a little emotional moment thinking God loved me and I found out he didn’t love me the way I thought . So I left and was preparing to transition to R&B music and God stopped me . So I’m just done singing all together. As you read the blog I am going to tell you the truth and not lie. Why do I feel like God is stopping me ? I don’t know and I don’t care anymore I’m just not going to sing .

Diamond