The Wilderness

Matthew 4:1 New Living Translation (NLT)

The Temptation of Jesus

4 Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted there by the devil.

What Happens When Your Obedience Leads You Into The Wilderness

One of the hardest things about being a prophet of God is learning how to deal with the prophetic, your pain from abuse, current betrayals, and completely feeling like God has left you…. while somehow trying to understand and grasp how to love God after being sexually abused. And by people who were in the church or someone who was in your family…

The last days prophets have it pretty bad… because you deal with the cruelty of people. You deal with opening your heart about your abuse … and we are dealing with the pain of sexual abuse…. sometimes you even cry infront of people.. And for some reason people are so blinded by jealousy that they could care less.

Now some people would want to fight me about this… But I just want to show you what they did to my savior Jesus.

While King was carrying the cross … they spat on him. He literally was beaten, mocked…. crowned with a crown of thorns… and then spat on.

Matthew 27:30-31 New King James Version (NKJV)

30 Then they spat on Him, and took the reed and struck Him on the head. 31 And when they had mocked Him, they took the robe off Him, put His own clothes on Him, and led Him away to be crucified.

In The Passion Translation, in the book of Psalm… David gives a prophetic insight of Jesus Christ being crucified… So we literally live what it means to pick up our cross to follow Jesus.

I believe that God is raising a generation of authentic apostles and prophets… because this crushing is so severe. The warfare that the real apostles and prophets fight and wrestle with is so difficult because we are literally learning straight from God. We are learning how to be apostles and prophets through God… and there is a certain level of pain… that comes with it. There is a certain level of isolation, betrayal, abandonment, and persecution.

But I pray that God would give the apostles and prophets healthy families … so that when they go home.. they can escape the terrible pain of ministry, betrayal, and hurt. I charge you in this hour becareful who you call your friends.. and becareful with women. For the BIBLE says

Proverbs 31:3 New King James Version (NKJV)

3 Do not give your strength to women,
Nor your ways to that which destroys kings.

I hope and pray

That we begin to see that prophets are humans…. but yet the Bible already told us what people would do.

Acts 7:54-60 New International Version (NIV)

The Stoning of Stephen

54 When the members of the Sanhedrin heard this, they were furious and gnashed their teeth at him. 55 But Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God. 56 â€śLook,” he said, “I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God.”

57 At this they covered their ears and, yelling at the top of their voices, they all rushed at him, 58 dragged him out of the city and began to stone him. Meanwhile, the witnesses laid their coats at the feet of a young man named Saul.

59 While they were stoning him, Stephen prayed, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” 60 Then he fell on his knees and cried out, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” When he had said this, he fell asleep.

Personal Experience

I recently have been dealing with sleep. Sometimes you just have to sleep. I didn’t say love it… but sometimes its the only thing that you can do. If you struggle with imagination (as most prophets do) and wrestle with insanity or fantasy… play the Bible App while you are sleeping and it will give your mind peace. I like listening to the Song of Solomon… but I would think that men would like The Chronicles.

To the Apostles and the prophets just enjoy your sleep. I have never seen this type of warfare and I recently had a dream of the death angel coming. Like the plagues of Pharaoh. Based off of how evil people are… we are in the last days. I’m going to be honest. I am terrible.. I pray for grace everyday to make the rapture of Jesus Christ or some call it the gathering. I hope I do its the truth. We are in the last days.

Matthew 24:11-13 King James Version (KJV)

11 And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.

12 And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

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When I was growing up I heard about this… but I didn’t believe it because I grew up seeing the opposite of what was preached at church.. So I know about the earthquakes and the other great signs… but when the BIBLE says .. “the love of many will grow cold.” When are in the last days.

Loved Mixed With Faith,

Diamond

What I Learned From Ruth

May the Lord repay you for what you have done. May you be richly rewarded by the Lord , the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to take refuge.”
Ruth 2:12 NIV
https://ruth.bible/ruth-2-12

Coming Back To God

I am someone who left God , went back to sin …. got destroyed … and then came back to God… And this is what I learned from Ruth.

It Doesn’t Matter

When I was sin I used to date drug dealers and men who were in gangs. Actually I left God and yet He was still calling me … telling me to return unto Him. And I did… but I had to deal with the natural consequences of my sin.

When Boaz had finished eating and drinking and was in good spirits, he went over to lie down at the far end of the grain pile. Ruth approached quietly, uncovered his feet and lay down. In the middle of the night something startled the man; he turned—and there was a woman lying at his feet! “Who are you?” he asked. “I am your servant Ruth,” she said. “Spread the corner of your garment over me, since you are a guardian-redeemer of our family.” “The Lord bless you, my daughter,” he replied. “This kindness is greater than that which you showed earlier: You have not run after the younger men, whether rich or poor. And now, my daughter, don’t be afraid. I will do for you all you ask. All the people of my town know that you are a woman of noble character.
Ruth 3:7‭-‬11 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/rut.3.7-11.NIV

Marriage Is Beautiful

I guess when it comes to marriage I’m kind of like the Apostle Paul. I never wanted to be married because I was always able to take care of myself. I never needed anyone and I was kind of prideful about it… Until I lost everything … I never knew how mean people can be when your heart is broken because I always had money… I used money to fill voids of pain and accept my hurt when it was gone…

But How Does This Relate To Ruth

Ruth lost her husband and had to leave her family.. (Ruth 1:16-17) she had to leave something that was dead and trust God through poverty, through work, and a new found faith. What is dead in your life ? I know for me my old life in California , my wealth , and my dreams are dead… and I have left my family like Ruth … and somehow I have to faith it and gather the strength like Ruth to move forward ..

I love Ruth’s character … because let me tell you dating thugs and drug dealers are not it honey .. trust me I know from experience.

Boaz was a older man I believe and that’s beautiful. Because of Ruth I have lost the desire for a worldly man. A man that fears God, loves the Bible, and is stable is a good man. Not these stupid rappers and drug dealers… that’s a fantasy that I dont want.

A Woman

I have learned like Gomer … you can leave God and be with men that buy you things but the moment … you hold your ground and your foundations of God kick in they are going to leave you. A man that loves God is a man for me. Christian men (real Christian men not pretenders) are the men that women should desire…. who wants a thug when you can have God ?

After the Sin

You’re left with a broken heart…. but if you work and trust God like Ruth HE (Psalm 24) will redeem you.. God I thank you in advance …

Today

Think about your dating choices as a Christian because they matter. Dont pursue thugs, drug dealers , rappers, and men who ONLY talk about money.

Focus on God… if God sends you a prophet as a husband love him…dont make fun of him for loving God…. if He sends a witness as your husband love him… because trust me life of the other side of recovery isn’t easy. Think before you act in your relationships and ask for wisdom.

Amen ? Amen.

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Ruth 4:13

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When God Tells You “You Are To Strong.”

New International Version
Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of life, so that nothing will hinder your prayers – 1 Peter 3:7

My Background

I am a child abuse survivor and I have mastered that art of being abused at home, going to school, and going to work like nothing was wrong with me. I remember there was a time when I was in high school that I walked to work after a snow storm because no one would help me get there.

After high school I immediately went to the military (The United States Marine Corps). I got through Marine bootcamp with a pinched nerve in my spine, a fractured foot, swollen legs, and DAYS without sleep.

When I was in the Marine Corps I went through a hard trial that I had to lose 27 pounds in a  week and half.. and I did it. I have learned to be strong. I had no choice. I remember when God began to deal with me about my life…

He told me , “When women abuse their daughters they form a ungodly strength that forms into masculinity .”

and this is true… I know it for myself. God had to deliver me from homosexuality and being masculine…. Because I was to strong..

As I Trust God Prayerfully…

I kept asking God… “Why.. Why are you so bent on destroying me? Why do you hate me ? What is it that you want ?”

God told me… I don’t hate you … You’re just to strong.

Being Feminine is Biblical

The Passion Translation tells us this… But what does being feminine mean? You have to bear children, you have to honor your husbands, and you pray with adoration….

But as my life continues I see that God is LITERALLY breaking me down… to become a woman again…

A woman who wears make-up and high heels who actually loves her children… and her husband… a proverbs 31 woman.

Again, this isn’t easy for me.. Because I am so used to doing everything by myself.. with NO help.. but I guess that was for a season…

As A Woman

If you are going through a hard time.. ask God.. “What do you need me to learn in this season?”

For me… it’s how to be a woman again.. but what is it for you? When we shift our perspective , it can give you the faith and prayer position to get through your trials.

Life is tough … but thank God for Jesus.

Diamond ❤ ,