When God Tells You “You Are To Strong.”

New International Version
Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of life, so that nothing will hinder your prayers – 1 Peter 3:7

My Background

I am a child abuse survivor and I have mastered that art of being abused at home, going to school, and going to work like nothing was wrong with me. I remember there was a time when I was in high school that I walked to work after a snow storm because no one would help me get there.

After high school I immediately went to the military (The United States Marine Corps). I got through Marine bootcamp with a pinched nerve in my spine, a fractured foot, swollen legs, and DAYS without sleep.

When I was in the Marine Corps I went through a hard trial that I had to lose 27 pounds in a  week and half.. and I did it. I have learned to be strong. I had no choice. I remember when God began to deal with me about my life…

He told me , “When women abuse their daughters they form a ungodly strength that forms into masculinity .”

and this is true… I know it for myself. God had to deliver me from homosexuality and being masculine…. Because I was to strong..

As I Trust God Prayerfully…

I kept asking God… “Why.. Why are you so bent on destroying me? Why do you hate me ? What is it that you want ?”

God told me… I don’t hate you … You’re just to strong.

Being Feminine is Biblical

The Passion Translation tells us this… But what does being feminine mean? You have to bear children, you have to honor your husbands, and you pray with adoration….

But as my life continues I see that God is LITERALLY breaking me down… to become a woman again…

A woman who wears make-up and high heels who actually loves her children… and her husband… a proverbs 31 woman.

Again, this isn’t easy for me.. Because I am so used to doing everything by myself.. with NO help.. but I guess that was for a season…

As A Woman

If you are going through a hard time.. ask God.. “What do you need me to learn in this season?”

For me… it’s how to be a woman again.. but what is it for you? When we shift our perspective , it can give you the faith and prayer position to get through your trials.

Life is tough … but thank God for Jesus.

Diamond ❤ ,