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Here I Am Grieving Again ..

So , as I told you all my story about my other baby in heaven . But today .. right now I’m thinking about him again. Honestly , sometimes I look at pictures of his father because like … I try to imagine what the baby would have looked like . I don’t think people understand how painful an abortion is . I made a huge mistake, I was told that I would be put in the brig for being overweight in the Marines while I was pregnant . I was left alone and ( I was an atheist at the time ) I just figured the baby was better off with God than with me . After that I started dating Jesus . I used to just go to the beach and sit by the ocean and cry and talk to God . Now I admit I wasn’t the best person before I knew Jesus but I know I would have been a good mom . What is ever harder is that a pastor told me that abortion was the right decision, which is why I left the church I wish I never listened to her . Years later I think about the baby , because you know when you get around prophets they tend to tell you what God is saying and everyone keeps prophesying “it wasn’t your fault “ … but that doesn’t take the pain away . When I look at Ruth I feel so guilty . Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine cuddling next to him and holding him . It’s the worst when I dream about him , I cry . I dream about him in heaven wrapped in all white cloth in a basket like Moses . That’s the worst . I’m glad God has him but I don’t know how to stop hating myself . I pray but … like it doesn’t take the pain away . His father ( not saying I miss him cause I don’t ) has a very beautiful smile so it’s painful when I think of him ( I think it was a boy because I have been pregnant two times and I felt totally different with Ruth … with Ruth I was sooooo hungry and you could see it in my face , with the other baby I was so angry and emotional (not hungry ) and a little bloated ) . Then what made it even worst is that the fathers friends went to my job and told everyone he didn’t want me because I was black and they laughed at me (while I was pregnant ) . Man that was a terrible time , I think the self hatred came because I don’t know why I let what they said get to me . But I’m trying to forgive myself . I don’t think his father and I would have ever worked out . But I know that that baby would have been beautiful like his father . For a while I hated his father , I just kept blocking him because I hated that he left me to deal with that situation alone . But now I’m learning to let go . I think I need therapy to deal with it . I read the Bible a lot . But it’s so hard because … I just feel so guilty. I’m watching my daughter grow up wondering how my other baby would have been . That’s the worst feeling in the world . I honestly hate myself for what I did and I know God forgives me , but I don’t know how to forgive myself . That’s the truth about abortion , you’ll hate yourself when it’s over like me .

Diamond

Date 2/06/2024

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God… I Will Wait For My Adam.

15 The Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it. 16 And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.”

18 The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.” – Genesis 2:15-18

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The beginning of Adam and Eve love story is a powerful story. It shows how God specifically designed a woman who was the perfect fit just for Adam. I have been doing a lot of thinking and yes , I am having baby fever I realize that I need not return back to the men who have hurt me so bad in the past. I really believe the next man I have his child will be my Adam, even if the baby is out of wedlock. I don’t want a fling , but a man that understands my personality and understands how I am.

  • A man that understands that I HATE drama and mess.
  • A man that is faithful and honest.
  • A man that is a man of God and has a holy fear and son love for God.
  • A man that is truthful and not abusive.

I realize that I cannot pretend to be anyone that I am not, and yes I will get married again because God told me, but I need a Adam. I need a man that views me as his Eve. I need a man that understands me and I understand him, a man that works with me and not against me. A man that is not fake or phony, I need a real man. I realized that I need an Adam.

With Love,

Queen Diamond

Date: 2/04/2024

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I Told You All What It Was

Last year I shared my testimony of being targeted for being a Christian and how I was betrayed by my own husband . I told people how I was targeted by the police and lied on and framed . Here below is confirmation. What is going on with TD JAKES is wrong because P.Diddy has drugged and raped other men … yet the allegations which is true , is that T.D. Jakes is sleeping with him ( P.Diddy) and he is a pedophile . This is absolutely crazy and shows that TD Jakes is NOT fighting for God but TD Jakes is fighting against God .

But if it is from God, you will not be able to overthrow them. You may even find yourselves fighting against God!” – Acts 5:39

The Potter’s House has left God and it’s the truth . I pray that people would open their eyes and see the truth about what God is saying . This is not funny . If a bishop is getting the FBI to target someone for speaking against a RAPIST something is wrong .

Queen Diamond

Isaiah 54:17New King James Version

17 No weapon formed against you shall prosper,
And every tongue which rises against you in judgment
You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord.

Date : 2/03/2024

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I Have A Problem With Women Who Lie About Being Raped

Genesis 39:12-18 CEV

Potiphar’s wife grabbed hold of his coat and said, “Make love to me!” Joseph ran out of the house, leaving his coat there in her hands. When this happened, she called in her servants and said, “Look! This Hebrew has come just to make fools of us. He tried to rape me, but I screamed for help. And when he heard me scream, he ran out of the house, leaving his coat with me.” Potiphar’s wife kept Joseph’s coat until her husband came home. Then she said, “That Hebrew slave of yours tried to rape me! But when I screamed for help, he left his coat and ran out of the house.”

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Now I am a woman , who had a very traumatic childhood filled with sexual violence and it has been a terrible experience. I have connected with other women who have been sexually abused as well and it’s a terrible ordeal to go through . But … I realized that people are hearing my childhood story and then lying and saying what happened to me happened to them which is sick . Why would you want someone to rape you ? The mental agony of that ordeal is unbearable at times . I’m sure women who have been literally sexually assaulted would understand what I’m saying .

But there is this one lying heifer that just . Just look at the picture below .

Now … this woman ( Ayanna Jackson) is claiming that Tupac raped her … but … if he really raped you ( which I don’t believe he did ) then why are you posing in front of his mural with no emotional distress that a normal rape victim would have ? Now , this is why I’m saying something .

1 – If someone doesn’t say something years from now it will be revealed that she did lie about being raped and then the government will try to make excuses for men who really did rape someone and citing her story .

2 – She will inspire a new movement that even if a man looks at a woman that’s considered raped (because they know she lied ) and so many more innocent men will be thrown into jail who are particularly black because The USA is still racist systematically towards black men especially black men who are millionaires.

Now , this woman is crazy . Now nobody but them really know what she did last night , maybe the guys passed her around or maybe it was just her and Tupac , but obviously (judging by the way she still lust after him ) whatever happened was absolutely consensual intercourse . No , I do not think Tupac Shakur should be considered a registered sex offender because the alleged victim (judging by the picture ) is openly telling people she still wants to have sex with Tupac Shakur .


Queen Diamond

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Why Are Black Celebrities Targeted When They Defend Themselves?

You know I’m getting really tired of ignorance and I am tired of people talking crazy but if I say something then they get scared and start shaking in their boots . It’s annoying and irritating because people have begun to recognize me and I’m honestly annoyed by it . I’m annoyed by the racist police officers who don’t like me because I’m a black woman with influence ( but I don’t like you either ). I’m annoyed by the Marines and our racist history that we have and what they did to me ( I don’t like you either ). I’m annoyed by the ignorant people that I meet that stare at my body and make ignorant comments about how I look saying that I don’t “look” like a prophet and because I wax and shave apparently that’s a “sin” because women aren’t supposed to be concerned about their appearance if they are “really” a prophet . Oh but baby I’m even more annoyed at people who have nicknamed me “Beyoncé “ in the church because of my appearance and how I sing . Now , out of all people they choose a no good witch (Beyoncé )to call me . I’m even more annoyed by the ignorant racism that I go through with companies such as Amazon saying that I have stolen my own books and a white woman has the NERVE to pretend to be me and Twitter lets her have a account in my name . I’m annoyed by the bank I’m with draining my account , but I know that God said that draining is about to stop . I’m annoyed that Wells Fargo locked me out my account which was my daughters college fund for $100. Im annoyed that YouTube said that I’m bullying Satan meanwhile Lil Nas X nasty behind stripping infront of kids on YouTube . I’m annoyed that I reached over 2 million views on YouTube and YouTube refuses to openly show it . I’m annoyed by The United States Of America . I’m even more annoyed that racist people say ignorant stuff online but if you respond then they want to claim that you’re bullying someone and that you’re “weaponizing “ . Hmm . So . I can’t stand Beyoncé because of how she mocks God , but baby I’m going to be more silent than Beyoncé. Because I see what the government is doing and I see that the government HATES that so many different black people have gained influence and financial wealth . So , no longer will I communicate with people online and no I do not care about your comments and no I’m not doing a meet and greet and no I’m not signing a book. Nope , keep your distance away from me and if you get to rowdy that’s self-defense and I defend myself very well I might add . As of today January 29,2024 you shall not hear a word or response for me unless the Lord releases me because I realized that some white judges want a white woman to sue me to try to demean me in court to make it seem like a white woman who has NOT accomplished even five percent of what I have is better than me and she is NOT ! I realized it bothers a lot of hidden Nazi’s in the court systems that I’m educated , a military veteran , and intelligent. It bothers them and I honestly do not care . But I realize that racist police officers want to try to get me to submit to racism and I WILL NO DO IT . So , let the games begin .
Queen Diamond

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