Category: the woman

No I Don’t Love My Daughter More Than My Other Baby

Revelation 21:4English Standard Version

4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

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I remember before I divorced my husband Ra’keem we got into a bad argument around Christmas because he didn’t want me talking about my other child , and I corrected him and told him don’t ever disrespect my child . I thought it was ironic because he took care of his crack head ex-wife other two kids that didn’t belong to him but told me not to bring up my child . That’s crazy . Anyways , I remember I was looking at a picture of me and Ruth and I got sad because I didn’t want my baby in heaven to feel like I loved Ruth more than him . No , the problem was when I was younger I wasn’t good enough to be that child’s mother . I was the problem and not that child. I was an atheist and I had a lot of problems from my own childhood. It was me . So , sometimes I look at my daughter and I tell her that she should be grateful and stop being spoiled . Because I guess I resent myself for what I did . It’s … it’s the pain of never getting to hold him , not seeing his first steps , not seeing him say “mama or dada” … he probably would have walked just like his father , his father smiles when he walks and bounces a little I don’t know why that’s just how he is . It’s the moments that I experience like seeing Ruth happy when she is on the swing … I hate myself because I don’t get to see my other baby happy on the swing . I never get to see his beautiful hands … his curly hair … the beautiful smile . His gorgeous eyes . His glow … what did I do ?

Diamond

Date : 2/06/2024

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Believing God & Waiting For Pregnancy ( Even If It Is Out Of Wedlock )

Genesis 38:27-28Contemporary English Version

27-28 Tamar later gave birth to twins. But before either of them was born, one of them stuck a hand out of her womb. The woman who was helping tied a red thread around the baby’s hand and explained, “This one came out first.”

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So , I’m having serious baby fever and I want another baby . Lately , I have been grieving so much thinking and imagining about my other baby . Sometimes I dream of what it would have been like to hold him or touch his beautiful cheeks . I’m sad about that I guess . But I realized that if I get pregnant while I’m in ministry and I’m not married I’m going to keep the baby . I’m not getting an abortion and I’m going to be seated as the Holy Spirit leads and keep the baby . I believe God and even a baby out of wedlock is a blessing . I have faith I’m just waiting on his perfect timing , even if it’s before marriage I know that that baby was supposed to be here no matter what people think .

That’s Just How Good God Is ,

Queen Diamond

Date : 2/04/2024

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A Real Man Is Not Jealous Of His Woman

Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. – Genesis 2:22

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I realized that there is a serious epidemic of real men . A real man is not determined by his money but his morals . It seemed like the older generation of men understood the basics of being a man such as getting married , buying a house , having kids , and being a provider . Now , it is actually disturbing of the lack of real men . There was a time that men worked so hard that a woman could stay home and raise her children and produce good citizens , now because the men do not work and it forces a woman to provide there is a plague of lawless children because of the instability of a man .

  • A man should not be at home while the woman works . The Holy Bible says that if a man does not work then he does not eat . Normally , a woman was supposed to be at home raising the kids but now the men are not doing this . Yet , I believe that there are still real men out there that will stand for what is right in regard to being a man .
  • A real man never lets another man disrespect his woman . Men should not let other men confront or disrespect a woman . If a man acts like that , the he is not a real man he is a coward . Because I guarantee you he will not act like that towards a real man he will only do that towards women . Real men need to get back to protecting women and their womb’s because they birth there legacy .
  • A real man should not raise his children to disrespect their mother . Now , there are some trifling mothers but not all mothers are trifling . There are some half decent mothers that have gotten involved with men that tell their daughters to disrespect their mothers and that isn’t right . A real man will tell his daughter , that her mother is the adult and not her , and the mother is in charge and not the kids . That’s what a real man does.
  • A real man is honest . Real men don’t lie and they don’t let other women fight the woman that they love . A real man does not let another woman attack the woman that he loves and if he does have to use physical force to protect her then that’s what he will do , because that’s a real man .
  • A real man does not give his woman a sexually transmitted disease and then lie about it . Yes , a real man is clean about his sexuality. A real man does not hide his status and then infect another woman and then lie about it , that’s not a real man .
  • A real man doesn’t beg another man for a handout . A real man works to provide for his family and would never let his family starve due to his laziness and instability. A real man provides .

Those tips are the basics that the older generation understood and acted on . I pray that real men return and protect and provide the way that God originally had planned .

Love ,

Queen Diamond

Date : February 02,2024

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I Have A Problem With Women Who Lie About Being Raped

Genesis 39:12-18 CEV

Potiphar’s wife grabbed hold of his coat and said, “Make love to me!” Joseph ran out of the house, leaving his coat there in her hands. When this happened, she called in her servants and said, “Look! This Hebrew has come just to make fools of us. He tried to rape me, but I screamed for help. And when he heard me scream, he ran out of the house, leaving his coat with me.” Potiphar’s wife kept Joseph’s coat until her husband came home. Then she said, “That Hebrew slave of yours tried to rape me! But when I screamed for help, he left his coat and ran out of the house.”

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Now I am a woman , who had a very traumatic childhood filled with sexual violence and it has been a terrible experience. I have connected with other women who have been sexually abused as well and it’s a terrible ordeal to go through . But … I realized that people are hearing my childhood story and then lying and saying what happened to me happened to them which is sick . Why would you want someone to rape you ? The mental agony of that ordeal is unbearable at times . I’m sure women who have been literally sexually assaulted would understand what I’m saying .

But there is this one lying heifer that just . Just look at the picture below .

Now … this woman ( Ayanna Jackson) is claiming that Tupac raped her … but … if he really raped you ( which I don’t believe he did ) then why are you posing in front of his mural with no emotional distress that a normal rape victim would have ? Now , this is why I’m saying something .

1 – If someone doesn’t say something years from now it will be revealed that she did lie about being raped and then the government will try to make excuses for men who really did rape someone and citing her story .

2 – She will inspire a new movement that even if a man looks at a woman that’s considered raped (because they know she lied ) and so many more innocent men will be thrown into jail who are particularly black because The USA is still racist systematically towards black men especially black men who are millionaires.

Now , this woman is crazy . Now nobody but them really know what she did last night , maybe the guys passed her around or maybe it was just her and Tupac , but obviously (judging by the way she still lust after him ) whatever happened was absolutely consensual intercourse . No , I do not think Tupac Shakur should be considered a registered sex offender because the alleged victim (judging by the picture ) is openly telling people she still wants to have sex with Tupac Shakur .


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Good Memories

So lately I have been a little sad wondering what my other baby would have looked like . Sometimes I have dreams of him in heaven , and I love seeing his curly dark black hair . But I get sad because I know he probably would been the most beautiful baby in the entire planet . I have been left to grieve alone .

But I have had some resentment in my heart because I really wanted to be a mother . I want more children but I can’t really find a good donor to have one with . I wondered why I wasn’t getting pregnant with my ex-husband but now I know the drugs made him infertile . So here I am and I want more kids , but I realize that after what happened in my marriage I don’t think I will marry until I’m well above 59 years old. I don’t think it’s fair that so many women can have children out of wedlock and I can’t . I never really wanted to be a minister so why can’t I have more kids ? That’s just my thoughts on January 30,2024 . I’m kind of sad because I want more kids and I don’t want to wait until I’m married . Because children bring good memories .

Queen Diamond


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