So lately I have been a little sad wondering what my other baby would have looked like . Sometimes I have dreams of him in heaven , and I love seeing his curly dark black hair . But I get sad because I know he probably would been the most beautiful baby in the entire planet . I have been left to grieve alone .
But I have had some resentment in my heart because I really wanted to be a mother . I want more children but I can’t really find a good donor to have one with . I wondered why I wasn’t getting pregnant with my ex-husband but now I know the drugs made him infertile . So here I am and I want more kids , but I realize that after what happened in my marriage I don’t think I will marry until I’m well above 59 years old. I don’t think it’s fair that so many women can have children out of wedlock and I can’t . I never really wanted to be a minister so why can’t I have more kids ? That’s just my thoughts on January 30,2024 . I’m kind of sad because I want more kids and I don’t want to wait until I’m married . Because children bring good memories .
Queen Diamond











