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My Testimony To Help Other Young Women: The Truth About Abortion Grief

The Truth About Abortion Grief

Revelation 21:4

English Standard Version

4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

A Few Years Ago.. 

A few years ago, I wrote a book of Poems dedicated to my angel baby. I was grieving so badly and battling depression, because I just had another baby but I began to wonder what it would feel like having him. I reached out to his father, which was a bad decision I might add… because I was grieving and it did not end well like it always does not end well. So I made the decision that I would never reach out again , but I also realized that God had entrusted me to help other young women who were grieving from having a abortion and suffering the rejection from the father. 

The Story Behind Your Decision Is Probably Really Painful 

One thing I am not going to do is , point a condemning finger at you because God did not point a condemning finger at me when I had a abortion. Yes, I felt like God was disappointed in me but at that time I did not know the Lord. I grew up in church but I saw so much craziness that I became an atheist, it was after that abortion and the pain and tears from it that I became a Christian. 

The circumstances surrounding my decision were extremely hurtful and painful, and it is something that even now God has to heal me from because I regret aborting that child because I know the child would have been beautiful and intelligent and that God had a plan for the baby, I made a mistake. But one thought that was eating away at me is that even if he did not love me (the father) and he did not want me, it’s the fact that God knew how much he did not want me and blessed me with a baby that did love me and I had a abortion… That’s the painful side of my decision. 

To this day, he still is the same and I don’t really care (the father). That’s how he is. But I realized that my constant reaching out to him is because I was so depressed by what I had done that I wanted some connection to the baby (I learned this in psychology). So I did not miss him, I missed the baby and the baby came from him. That was a very tough and hard realization that I had to come to and it came by praying and talking to God about my mistake. 

I recommend you to pray and ask God for forgiveness and repent, especially if you did not know the Lord. The truth about abortion’s is that it is extremely painful to deal with. Sad to say commercial’s lie and make it seem like taking the pill is a easy fixer for an abortion, but they are not telling you about the suicide attempts, depression, and self-harm that comes after having a abortion. 

Don’t Cover For Him 

I had to accept that he will never care about me (the father of the baby). I had to accept that he does not care about the abortion and he never will. I am the mom, and I battle all of the grief by myself. I am sorry if you are faced with that same truth. If he does not care about you and he does not care about the abortion, I want you to know that God cares a whole lot about you. I had to accept my truth and give it God. I do not want you to commit suicide . I remember when I wanted to die because I wanted to be in heaven with my baby because it’s really mentally tormenting and  traumatizing. I thought I would be happier in heaven with my baby. I do not want you to commit suicide. God told me I had to live on. You have to live on and you have to trust God , that he will bless you with another opportunity to have a baby. My opportunity was with Ruth and she has brought a lot of healing from the pain of not having my other baby. 

The hardest part is that before I ever admitted what happened prophet’s would come up ; to me and say , “God said forgive yourself it is not your fault”. Collapsing in the spirit, everytime I would scream and cry because it was so painful. Then I had a dream about him, that he was in heaven running and playing hide and go seek with Jesus. He was so beautiful he had my skin complexion, his father’s eyes, but they were dark blue, and dark beautiful curly black hair. He was gorgeous. God said in the dream, “Name him Nehemiah because I sent him to comfort you because you were not loved”. 

I went through alot, but now despite issues I accept what God has to offer me. My current husband said he wanted us to have another baby, and I know that God is going to bless me with another boy one day to comfort me from all of the painful things that occurred in that situation. 

The Conclusion Is Forgive Yourself 

God wants you to forgive yourself, turn from your sin, repent , and never do it again. God wants to heal you from the pain of the rejection that led to that abortion. God does not want you to commit suicide because the father did not love you , which led to you aborting that child. Sadly, men do not feel the grief that a woman feels after having a abortion. I am the mother so while he parties, I cry because I had the duty to carry that child and I failed in that. Even if you failed, I want you to know that God is giving you grace to start over and have another family. Take my advice, and do not ever reach out to him again. Do not ever check on him and see how he is doing again. Do not ever care about his well being again. I am sorry, but he doesn’t love you and you have to accept it and move on. I had to accept that he never wanted me and never cared about me, and it was painful but I accepted it and I moved on. Move on beautiful, it is going to be okay. 

Love Mixed With Faith, 

Apostle Diamond S. Chessier 

Isaiah 40:31

King James Version

31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

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Supporting My Husband Boxing Career

Hey Ya’ll ,

So my husband is preparing to go into boxing and I’m 100 percent in support of him ! I wanted to go into boxing to because I love it , but my husband said I’m to pretty to be boxing professionally. So I’ll do what he say’s . So throughout the next few years you’re going to see some of his boxing things on my blog . I think it’s cool that I’m a boxer’s wife . One thing I have learned about being a boxer’s wife is a whoolleeeee lot of Jesus is needed when you’re a woman married to a boxer . They’re stubborn and have to learn the hard way . But I know God is faithful . I’m excited for his journey and I support him !

From His Wifey For Lifey ❤️ ,

Love You Daddy Hopefully You Treat Me Right This Time Bae ❤️

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Prophecy : The Rise Of Interracial Marriages

Vision :

As some of you know I am a mixed woman . I’m Brazilian , Colombian , Mayan , Peruvian , Mali , Irish , and British . Yet , even in this I still suffer racism especially in the New Bern , North Carolina area . Yet , even in this I can’t deny what God showed me and I am not angry about it . There will be a rise of interracial marriages . Yes … that is God’s will . You will see black women married to white men . You will see black men married to white women . You will see Asian men married to black women . You will say Asian women married to Mexican men . It’s the Lord’s Will . To show that God is not racist and loves his children of different races equally .

Sincerely ,

Apostle Diamond Chessier

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Yes , This Generation Is Indeed Crazy

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Matthew 24:11-13Disciples’ Literal New Testament

11 And many false-prophets will arise and deceive many. 12 And the love ofthe majority will grow cold because of lawlessness being multiplied. 13 But the one having endured to the end[a]— this one will be saved. 

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Disturbed Truth :

– Looking on the news this week I can honestly say I was indeed disturbed and my spirit was vexed by what I saw in the news . There was a report of police officers punching black women in the face for no reason for holding a baby . I saw a story of police officer blatantly lying on a police report to get someone in trouble when they pulled them over . I saw a story of a black man being jumped by racist people . I saw a story of a black mother whose baby head was decapitated while she was giving birth . There are attorney generals suing black women business owners for helping black people . Pennsylvania just removed the anti-racist law and the list goes on and on . Yet through it all the Lord said to me “in the last days the love of many will grow cold “. There is so much evil happening on the earth . I saw a news story in New Jersey about a landlord who gave hundreds of people , 24 hours to leave and find somewhere to go while destroying their credit and smirked on National television and thought it was funny (obviously he had a demon in him ) . People are lying out of pure jealousy , there are black Nazi’s that hate Jewish people which is a evil that has not been seen , and there are laws that are targeting children that come straight from the inspiration of Satan … yet God is still saying to trust HIM . I have to admit , even I have to hold on to the hem of Jesus garment right now as I to am being persecuted. As a black business woman and Christian , I have been lied on recently by a landlord ; the people that I was renting next to was literally waiting for me to have church so they could call the police on me (thankfully that didn’t happen ) because they didn’t like that it was a Christian church , my husband’s boss got offended that he said a Bible verse at work and came up with some elaborate scheme to call the police because he said a Bible verse , and there is the truth that stalkers watch me everyday trying to figure out where I’m having church so they can cause trouble . But God already told his people that these days would come . People of God you have to be strong . The word of God says the end is not yet . Think about the Christians in China that hide in dungeons having church . The world has rejected God due to the blasphemy of the word of God but we know as believers that we have to come out of the fire and one day the persecution will indeed end .Yet , when you have leaders like Vladimir Putin or someone in his likeness they attack them for doing the right thing . This generation is perverted , it’s sick , and it’s disgusting . All the people of God can do is pray and trust God to thrive in the midst of persecution . I believe that God will supply all of your financial needs despite this persecution that is on the earth .

Prayer : Father help those in financial emergency need . In Jesus Name , I pray thank God Amen .

Love Mixed With Faith ,

Apostle Diamond Chessier

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Verse Of The Day

Isaiah 54:17New King James Version

17 No weapon formed against you shall prosper,
And every tongue which rises against you in judgment
You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord.

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Love Mixed With Faith ,

Diamond Chessier

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