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The Apostolic And The Human

Psalms 119:19

For we know that the law is divinely inspired and comes from the spiritual realm, but I am a human being made of flesh and trafficked as a slave under sin’s authority.
Romans 7:14 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/rom.7.14.TPT

I Dont Want Fanfare

I was spending sometime with God … I call it dates with Jesus… and I was praying and eating, when the Holy Spirit told me to go to Romans 12 in TPT… Every word in that chapter I felt in my core. In this hard season of betrayal, loneliness, and rejection (especially for being a prophet) I have been battling heavy depression. Depressed because everyone wants a prophetic word about “purpose” but nobody wants to hear repent and turn from your wicked ways. If its not about a new house, car, a million dollars then no one wants to hear the prophet.. but instead they get blinded by jealousy and do everything in their power to hurt a prophet … why ? Because they don’t see that a prophet is still human.

Dealing With Betrayel and Jealousy

Psalm 9:9 MSG

Anger is cruel, and wrath is like a flood, but jealousy is even more dangerous.
Proverbs 27:4 NLT
https://bible.com/bible/116/pro.27.4.NLT

It amazes me how people can be so jealous of a spiritual gift, bible knowledge what God is doing for you because THEY are to lazy to go through the process.

They literally dont see

  • All of the times you have battled depression and suicide
  • The times you hated being a prophet, a leader, or the day you were born
  • The times you were homeless

And yet… They dont care…. because they’re jealous… But what do you do when it’s someone that you loved ?

Pray and Get Closer To God

Honestly…. When I was abused as a child by religious “people” they put Bible verses to justify what they were doing… When I opened my heart and finally told about my pain … it was people that hurt me. And what did I do ? Get angry at God. BUT now after fighting for my relationship with God I refuse to allow Satan to come against my relationship with Christ …

Do not let us agree to do wrong things. Keep us safe from Satan .” ’ Then Jesus said, ‘When other people do wrong things against you, you must forgive them. Then God, your Father in heaven , will also forgive you for the wrong things that you have done. But if you do not forgive other people, then your Father will not forgive you.’
Matthew 6:13‭-‬15 EASY
https://bible.com/bible/2079/mat.6.13-15.EASY

Is Everyone One A Bad Person ?

No… was Peter bad when he denied Christ ? Is not Peter a matriarch and a Apostle ? Doesn’t God use Peter through his shadow?

As a result, people carried their sick friends into the streets and put them on beds and mats . They hoped that Peter would pass that way and make their sick friends well again. They just wanted Peter’s shadow to touch them. Many people also came into Jerusalem from the small towns near the city. They brought their sick friends with them. Some of those sick people had bad spirits that gave them trouble. God caused all these sick people to become well again.
Acts 5:15‭-‬16 EASY
https://bible.com/bible/2079/act.5.15-16.EASY

I believe God allowed us to see both sides of Peter so that we can grasp …. that we are literally HUMAN! In other words stop abusing prophetic people and Apostles because you’re jealous…. (even though you’re going to do it… Don’t be mad when God destroys you *cough cough* Psalms 105:15 )

I love this verse in The Message Bible

When he came back to his disciples, he found them sound asleep. He said to Peter, “Can’t you stick it out with me a single hour? Stay alert; be in prayer so you don’t wander into temptation without even knowing you’re in danger. There is a part of you that is eager, ready for anything in God. But there’s another part that’s as lazy as an old dog sleeping by the fire.”
Matthew 26:40‭-‬41 MSG
https://bible.com/bible/97/mat.26.40-41.MSG

You know what this means to me ? I’ve accepted the fact that I may believe in the Apostolic , I know who I am in Christ when the time is right , and I may know my purpose … but I’m still human. And so are your Apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, and teachers. Stop abusing them.

This Is A Warning : God Is About To Expose Abusive Marriages In The Church. Kick Out The Abusive Behavior And Gather Fruit Of The Spirit.

Love Mixed With Faith

Genesis 29:9

Diamond ❤

Follow For She Loved Much

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Pierced

Yahweh is the God who continually saves me. I weep before you night and day. Please bend down and listen to my sobbing, for my life is riddled with troubles and death is just around the corner! Everyone sees my life ebbing out. They consider me a hopeless case and see me as a dead man. They’ve all left me here to die, helpless, like one who is doomed for death. They’re convinced you’ve forsaken me, certain that you’ve forgotten me completely— abandoned, pierced, with nothing to look forward to but death. They have discarded me and thrown me down into the deepest darkness as into a bottomless pit. I feel your wrath and it’s a heavy weight upon me, drowning me beneath a sea of sorrow. Pause in his presence Why did you turn all my friends against me? You’ve made me like a cursed man in their eyes. No one wants to be with me now. You’ve caught me in a trap with no way out. Every day I beg for your help. Can’t you see my tears? My eyes are swollen with weeping. My arms are wide, longing for mercy, but you’re nowhere to be found. How can those who are cut off from your care even know that you are there? How can I rise up to praise you if I’m dead and gone? Pause in his presence Who can give thanks for your love in the graveyard? Who preaches your faithfulness in the place of destruction? Does death’s darkness declare your miracles? How can anyone who’s in the grave, where all is forgotten, remember how you keep your promises? Lord, you know my prayer before I even whisper it. At each and every sunrise you will continue to hear my cry until you answer. O Lord, why have you thrown my life away? Will you keep turning the other way every time I call out to you? I’ve had to live in poverty and trouble all my life. Now I’m humiliated, broken, and helpless before your terrors and I can’t take it anymore. I’m overwhelmed by your burning anger. I’ve taken the worst you could give me and I’m speechless before you. I’m drowning beneath the waves of this sorrow, cut off with no one to help. All my loved ones and friends keep far away from me, leaving me all alone with only darkness as my friend.
Psalms 88:1‭-‬18 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/psa.88.1-18.TPT

Man How Powerful Is This Psalm

So this post is spontaneous. As I was working I looked at Psalm 88:15 in the TPT and I begin to meditate on this word…. How many times as Christians do we feel completely and utterly helpless and depressed. We feel like God has completely and utterly left us.. Like He is no where to be found. I know I do feel like this ALOT! If I might add. But you know who also did ?

Jesus ….

For three hours, beginning at noon, darkness came over the earth. And at three o’clock Jesus shouted with a mighty voice in Aramaic, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” —that is, “My God, My God, why have you deserted me?” Some who were standing near the cross misunderstood and said, “He’s calling for Elijah.” One bystander ran and got a sponge, soaked it with sour wine, then put it on a stick and held it up for Jesus to drink. But the rest said, “Leave him alone! Let’s see if Elijah comes to rescue him.” Jesus passionately cried out, took his last breath , and gave up his spirit.
Matthew 27:45‭-‬50 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.27.45-50.TPT

Hebrews 4:15 tells us that we have a high priests that understands us… with that being said… Let me tell you my story.

All of my life I have been abused. I’ve been raped. Made fun of for it. Been cursed out after I told I was raped. Used for sex. A prostitute. Homeless. I told a old boyfriend what happened to me and he called me a degrading name. I struggled so heavy with hating God. Mainly because the abuse came from people in the “church”… but guess what ? Jesus was abused by “church” people to… Matthew 26 & 27…. I remember battling heavy depression and God told me

“It’s because you’re going to the wrong source”

  • Sometimes God will put you in wilderness seasons to heal you.

For so long I was so angry at God , at myself, and just simply life. But now I see that my hard times came so I could be healed.. So I can help someone else.

So if you’ve been raped or molested tell someone and I will intercede for you .

If you’re homeless keep going.

And someone you know is in a occult or has been hurt by someone at church tell someone.

If you’re contemplating suicide please … dont do it. There is hope. Love you.

But because of our sins he was wounded, beaten because of the evil we did. We are healed by the punishment he suffered, made whole by the blows he received.
Isaiah 53:5 GNT
https://bible.com/bible/68/isa.53.5.GNT

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