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Getting Ready To Walk Away From It All

Getting Ready To Walk Away From It All

There is a spiritual force that was keeping me from leaving ministry, but I finally figured out how to get away. I made the decision that I was done, and though I legally own 3 churches I would not pursue it. I made the decision that I was done and I would never preach again, and I would never sing again. If I sang, it would be every now and then… but it would never be a full time career. 

I do not trust, so if I trust and something bad happens then I will never trust again. I made the decision that I would never faith walk and I would never put church first again, but instead I had to get my life together and end the nightmare that I had been living in for 28 years. For 28 years I have endured some of the most evil things in church. Try seeing the person who had been sexually abused as a child house be worth $700,000, while you are being persecuted for being a “prophet”. I made the decision that I would never prophesy again. I would never ask God for direction again. I would just live a normal life and never get involved into ministry again. So no, you will not see content. But you will see the thoughts of me and no, my church is not open. No, I do not go to church. No, I am not in ministry. Now as I say goodbye, I made the decision that I have to get my life together. No, I do not believe that church can fix my life. I give up on church and I do not believe in dreams or prophecies anymore. As I walk away, understand that I still understand the spiritual realm so don’t test me. But no, I want nothing to do with church or ministry anymore.

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No More Faith Walking For Me

Isaiah 41:10 

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

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Since I was 19 years old I have been faith walking in ministry and I am done. Ministry does not provide the money that I need to take care of my child , to keep my hair done, my nails done, and provide the clothes I need. I have had enough. For years I watched people buy houses, get their education, get promoted at work, and I did everything that I could to try and listen to God and I am done. I refuse to be the bitter black prophet in ministry. As of right now, my focus is work. I am have a gift to work and earn whatever I wan’t and that is my focus. I cannot be full time ministry anymore because it does not provide. Never again, will I leave my job to be full time ministry. That cycle of poverty and failure being in ministry is done. I never wanted to be used by God, God made me even though I did not want to. I never really loved God, spiritually I did not have a choice. But I am done. I have had enough.

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The Wilderness

Matthew 4:1 New Living Translation (NLT)

The Temptation of Jesus

4 Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted there by the devil.

What Happens When Your Obedience Leads You Into The Wilderness

One of the hardest things about being a prophet of God is learning how to deal with the prophetic, your pain from abuse, current betrayals, and completely feeling like God has left you…. while somehow trying to understand and grasp how to love God after being sexually abused. And by people who were in the church or someone who was in your family…

The last days prophets have it pretty bad… because you deal with the cruelty of people. You deal with opening your heart about your abuse … and we are dealing with the pain of sexual abuse…. sometimes you even cry infront of people.. And for some reason people are so blinded by jealousy that they could care less.

Now some people would want to fight me about this… But I just want to show you what they did to my savior Jesus.

While King was carrying the cross … they spat on him. He literally was beaten, mocked…. crowned with a crown of thorns… and then spat on.

Matthew 27:30-31 New King James Version (NKJV)

30 Then they spat on Him, and took the reed and struck Him on the head. 31 And when they had mocked Him, they took the robe off Him, put His own clothes on Him, and led Him away to be crucified.

In The Passion Translation, in the book of Psalm… David gives a prophetic insight of Jesus Christ being crucified… So we literally live what it means to pick up our cross to follow Jesus.

I believe that God is raising a generation of authentic apostles and prophets… because this crushing is so severe. The warfare that the real apostles and prophets fight and wrestle with is so difficult because we are literally learning straight from God. We are learning how to be apostles and prophets through God… and there is a certain level of pain… that comes with it. There is a certain level of isolation, betrayal, abandonment, and persecution.

But I pray that God would give the apostles and prophets healthy families … so that when they go home.. they can escape the terrible pain of ministry, betrayal, and hurt. I charge you in this hour becareful who you call your friends.. and becareful with women. For the BIBLE says

Proverbs 31:3 New King James Version (NKJV)

3 Do not give your strength to women,
Nor your ways to that which destroys kings.

I hope and pray

That we begin to see that prophets are humans…. but yet the Bible already told us what people would do.

Acts 7:54-60 New International Version (NIV)

The Stoning of Stephen

54 When the members of the Sanhedrin heard this, they were furious and gnashed their teeth at him. 55 But Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God. 56 “Look,” he said, “I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God.”

57 At this they covered their ears and, yelling at the top of their voices, they all rushed at him, 58 dragged him out of the city and began to stone him. Meanwhile, the witnesses laid their coats at the feet of a young man named Saul.

59 While they were stoning him, Stephen prayed, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” 60 Then he fell on his knees and cried out, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” When he had said this, he fell asleep.

Personal Experience

I recently have been dealing with sleep. Sometimes you just have to sleep. I didn’t say love it… but sometimes its the only thing that you can do. If you struggle with imagination (as most prophets do) and wrestle with insanity or fantasy… play the Bible App while you are sleeping and it will give your mind peace. I like listening to the Song of Solomon… but I would think that men would like The Chronicles.

To the Apostles and the prophets just enjoy your sleep. I have never seen this type of warfare and I recently had a dream of the death angel coming. Like the plagues of Pharaoh. Based off of how evil people are… we are in the last days. I’m going to be honest. I am terrible.. I pray for grace everyday to make the rapture of Jesus Christ or some call it the gathering. I hope I do its the truth. We are in the last days.

Matthew 24:11-13 King James Version (KJV)

11 And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.

12 And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

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When I was growing up I heard about this… but I didn’t believe it because I grew up seeing the opposite of what was preached at church.. So I know about the earthquakes and the other great signs… but when the BIBLE says .. “the love of many will grow cold.” When are in the last days.

Loved Mixed With Faith,

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