Tag: Marriage

So I Realized That I Need A Man – Laughing Out Loud

The man who finds a wife finds a treasure, and he receives favor from the LORD. – Proverbs 18:22

So…

My days of trying to be a independent black woman that don’t need no man have come to a close and this is why. So, tell me why I was trying to fix my car because it was making a sound and I just knew it did not sound right (thankfully I got that right). The engine light was not on but I had this gut feeling that I need to fix the car.. Yet, I also had a gut feeling that God was saying wait until the morning and let a man look at the car. But I was trying to be strong and not need a man , and welp.. I accidentally put antifreeze/coolant in my car oil part. Whew that was not good. So, thankfully I googled that when you do that do NOT turn the car on, so I did not turn the car on. But within one hour (after I prayed and asked God to help me) someone came and helped me and thankfully he knew how to work on cars and had tools already in his car. I paid him because that was the right thing to do. But in 1 hour I had to buy new oil, two new oil filters (the store gave me the wrong one the first time), anti freeze coolant, and a oil draining bucket and man was that expensive. When it was all over, I felt like the devil was trying to plant a seed of resentment that I spent so much money on a emergency with my car but instead I rebuked satan and begin to thank God that he gave me the funds and finances to handle that emergency. But in that moment, I realized that I need a husband lol, because I had no idea what I was doing but I tried . So no more being bitter and angry for me laughing out loud because obviously I need a man, well I should say a new man after I divorce my current husband Ra’keem. I am re-marrying because I need help with my car laughing out loud.

Love Queen Diamond,

Date : 2/09/2024

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My Wedding Ring Was Beautiful

Today I cried all day thinking about my husband and how much I loved him . My heart was broken in a way you could never imagine . I cried and someone had to comfort me . I was hurting so much . I looked at my wedding ring and just wanted to end it all . I meant what I said when I said my vows and to loose my husband to drugs has been the most …. Painful thing I have ever gone through . To watch someone fade away that I was in love with and become unrecognizable has been terrible . The marriage was abusive because of drugs . I remember before he was hooked on drugs he would leave rose petals at my bed when I woke up and it would be gifts and purses waiting for me . Either way I give it to God . Sometimes it hurts so bad I can’t move . Because he was my HUSBAND . He wasn’t not a boyfriend he was my husband !

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I had to make the right decision to choose the safety of my child over Ra’keem. God knows that I loved Ra’keem he was my everything and I loved him and his beautiful dark skin. I have no idea when he decided to start doing drugs but I know that I am heartbroken. All I can do is pray and ask God to help me. Below are the pictures of what he used to look like (he was so handsome like prince charming) , our memories, and his favorite pictures of me.

Y’all Ra’keem was so fine and beautiful. Everywhere we went women would swoon over him , but he just used to hold my hand and kiss me and tell me I was beautiful. His spanish rose. Below are our memories we shared together.

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Below were Ra’keem favorite pictures of me before drugs..

We kissed and he smudged my lipstick a little in this picture.

This was his favorite dress that I wore and he used to love when I wore my natural hair.

So.. tonight I am grieving. I feel like a widow.. because my husband is unrecognizable. I asked God if we could make it work, God said no. So, I do hope that he would try to become sober because whatever drug he is doing has caused him to loose his mind and commit crimes. When I said I do , I meant that and I was ready to dedicate my life to birthing his children and building him a dynasty through the children we were planning to have. I would get so excited at the thought of birthing his beautiful dark chocolate babies, I wanted his son so bad. But I have to pick up the broken pieces of my heart and move on.

….. Diamond

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Why A Handsome Black Man Should Never Beg Another Man For Financial Help

Proverbs 28:19-23 NLT

A hard worker has plenty of food, but a person who chases fantasies ends up in poverty. The trustworthy person will get a rich reward, but a person who wants quick riches will get into trouble. Showing partiality is never good, yet some will do wrong for a mere piece of bread. Greedy people try to get rich quick but don’t realize they’re headed for poverty. In the end, people appreciate honest criticism far more than flattery.

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I want to tell a true story that really happened . So before I made the decision to file for divorce from my disgusting ex-husband , who allegedly got hit by a truck . But like after he got hit he mysteriously was able to go cheat with a woman he worked with a Waffle House because he believed he was getting 1.2 million dollars for a car accident that was really his fault and yes he did NOT get 1.2 million . So , my ex-husband named Ra’keem , decides that instead of working he would rather go beg his white lawyer for food to bring home to his black family (mind you this lawyer was one of the biggest lawyers in Greenville , North Carolina ) so that he could have more time to cheat with some bum female … because apparently me telling him to work two jobs to pay rent was to much for him as a man ( mind you I was working five jobs just to make ends meet because of the recession and being disabled … the disabled money was NOT enough to feed my daughter especially when you add rent , car note, car insurance , health insurance , food , clothes , electricity money , and basic needs). Now … when I found out that Ra’keem was constantly facing eviction and unable to pay rent on time and would rather stand outside the Tobacco shop in Greenville , North Carolina and beg other men for cigarettes and money instead of working I remembered those beautiful words that God said “do not marry Ra’keem” three years and the night before I said I do to Ra’keem . So …. I realized that I had a stronger work ethic than Ra’keem . But also Ra’keem REFUSED to watch my daughter Ruth , because it was getting in the way of his time to go sleep and cheat with the Waffle House worker AND he lied about getting promoted to manager , come to find out Ra’keem had not been to work in almost two weeks so he LIED and was begging and sleeping with another woman while I was at home trying to take care of my daughter and wondering where he was (because you know cheaters don’t answer the phone they just disappear for all hours of the day )….. So…. I was reading a article about how a rapper (who I personally do NOT like ) openly begged two white men for help to pay off his billion dollar debt . Then it clicked ! Like … that’s a serious issue . Do black men realize how bad that looks when his wife has to watch him beg another man for money to provide for his family ? Now because I made the BAD decision to marry this man , I have to start all over and fix my finances because of what he did. I have to continue paying for everything for myself while he can walk around freely stealing clothes from stores , getting high , and cheating with some idiot he met at Waffle House . But what does mommy have to do ? Mommy has to raise her daughter and love her despite what happened . So black men …. Do NOT do what my ex-husband did. Be a real man and work to provide for your family . Do not beg another man for a handout and don’t accept money from another man unless it’s business oriented. You do not understand how much your influence means to your family . Black man do better than my ex-husband .
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Now personally , I know that I will get married again . I love dark men , I LOVE dark men and brown men . I love when a man works hard and when he is a real man and he is serious about his business . I love when a man moves in silence and works in silence . I like when a man is a business man . I like a man who is a BOSS , not an employee but a BOSS (I mean you were an employee at one point and then you graduated into having your own business ) . I love when a black man is educated (even if it is a honorary degree that’s still smart ! ) , I love when a man doesn’t listen to his friends drama and does not let his friends disrespect his woman , and I LOVE THUGS ! So , I believe that there is a good man out there , right now I’m just focused on parenting .

Love ,

Queen Diamond

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Some Real Stuff I Learned About Life, Love, & Marriage

Hello everyone,

So as you all know I am getting a divorce and it has caused me to do alot of self-reflection. As a GROWN woman, I have been forced to learn alot about love and what I desire. Not only that I have learned alot about warning signs in a relationship and when to say no. So here are three tips that I learned so hopefully you do not make the same mistake that I did. Being my age at 27 years old and starting over has been a pain that I have never felt. It has caused me to accept that no one really has ever loved me in my past and it has caused me to see that I never really had a man to protect me. I never had a man that loved me and I never had a man that was worth anything. Over the years, the men that I dated were truly honestly nothing. Because of how they look other women might want them but they honestly repulse and disgust me because they are truly worthless. Not even venting just being truly honest. Because I understand alot and see alot , I watch as people who do not know God live these marvelous lives meanwhile as a woman who knows the bible my love life has been terrible in my past. I married a pastor and he was a disgusting, filthy, and worthless compulsive liar and not even worth being called my husband. I dated a man in the Marines and now that I look back he was so gross in his behavior, I do not know why I even went to a certain emotional bond with him. There alot of things that I realize and I just want to be alone for a long time so that I can heal in the proper manner.

1 – Do not ever date a man that lives with his mother. See I made that mistake. My ex-husband lived with his mother and he became weird like his mother and he started acting weird and ugly just like his mother. Do not EVER live with a man that cannot be man enough to be without his mother, especially if she was promiscuous when she was younger. My ex-husband mother was very promiscuous when she was younger and she lied about people sexually abusing her in her childhood. Constantly she let her boyfriends abuse my ex-husband, yet for some reason she constantly played the victim and she became jealous of me when I registered my business and went to college. So because I was in college , I was scoring so high that I had multiple scholarships and they jumped me and called the police on me because I was a veteran after I had my baby. Then she set me up… but the thing is so did Ra’keem. Ra’keem set me up also and started acting just like his mother, Tanya. That made me realize that a HUGE warning sign is NEVER live , engage, or marry a man that is that attached to his mother because he will betray you. His mother was sick in her head. Ra’keem and Tanya relationship was very inappropriate and very weird. Matter of fact they were working together to do shady stuff with their taxes and the IRS because he is a former accountant. Just saying, do not do it. Stay away from those type of men.

2 – Actually I am going to list five tips, do not date a man that has children . I am sorry woman of God, if you have children that is fine but if he has children DO NOT get involved this is why. You are the woman, so you control your home and your life. He is a man and he wants to be around his kids, his kids mother influence is going to try and attack your house with all it’s might. I had my own house, Ra’keem is dirty like his ex-wife and he is on drugs like his ex-wife. I am not on drugs and I am not dirty, so I had to divorce him. Their daughter (Ra’keem and his ex-wife) was the tunnel to his drug usage because of her influence through their daughter. Start fresh, and have a man that DOES NOT have kids. If he has kids with another woman he will tear down your house and everything that you worked for because his kids will go and complain as to why their mother does not have what you have and he will begin to resent you . So DO NOT DO IT .

3 – Girlll… get a man that tells the TRUTH no matter what over a man that LIES ! Girl, if you are dating a man and he honestly tells you that he is attracted to you but he is not ready to be in a committed relationship that is better than being with a man that lies and says that he is faithful and he is NOT ! It is better for a man to be honest and tell you the entire truth of who he is and what he is doing, than a man that lies and this is why. One, girl if he lies and says he is faithful and he is not he WILL get someone else pregnant behind your back and marry them and try to make you the side chick. Two, if he says he is faithful and he is not he WILL give you a sexually transmitted disease and have you in the hospital because he lied and said you were the only one just to have intimacy unprotected and he infected you. Three, Girl if he lies he will steal for that other woman and frame you for it. He will hate you because the other girl lets him do WHATEVER he wants and you ask questions he will turn on you and have another woman in your house and he will lie and tell everyone that he was the one faithful and you cheated (which is a lie), he will lie and say you gave him the diseases (which is a lie), and he will lie and tell everyone that your baby is not his (which is a lie).

4 – Girl the devil is in the church. Just because he is a pastor does not mean he is a good husband. Girl men who are pastors (modern day) have pornography addictions and problems, their unfaithful, and their compulsive liars. Most modern day pastors are perverts and they cannot control themselves. They listen to other women over their wives and do some of the most hurtful things to their wives and girl that is white and black and hispanic pastors. Do NOT date a Pastor.

5 – Girl keep your instagram on private and do not tell anyone when you start dating a new man. Keep everyone out your business. Girl, if he send his friends to come get you reject him because his friends will be his downfall. He needs to be a man and meet you and talk to you like a man. If he wants you then he needs to meet you face to face, and get him tested ! I do not care, be honest about your status and you do not lie either and get him tested to make sure that he does not have any sexually transmitted diseases. Do not be irresponsible with your body and do not date a man that is irresponsible with his body. DO NOT date a man that meets women online and sleeps with them. DO NOT date a man that meets women on dating apps like plenty of fish or tinder and sleeps with them, he could give you HIV/AIDS or HERPES or Something else. Do not do it !

6 – Girl I got to keep going. DO NOT DATE A MAN THAT YOU HAVE MORE MONEY, INFLUENCE, OR WORK HARDER THAN ! Girrrrrrrrrrrrllllllllllllllaaaaaaaa heeeeeeeedddddd my warning ! Do not date a man you have more money, more influence, or work harder than because he WILL try to destroy everything that you worked for and he WILL beat you. You need a man that has more money than you because then he will not be jealous of you and try to destroy everything that you worked for. You need a man that has more influence than you so he can manage you and protect your influence and your destiny, and you need a man that works harder than you so that when you have a baby your body can heal the proper way. I did not get a chance for my stomach to heal after I had a baby so I had a pregnant pouch for almost three years. So I do not want you to go through something that bad , because that really was hard to deal with. So you need a man that works harder than you so when you have a baby you can take some time off and your body recover without you worrying about bills and formula and other things.

7 – Celibacy. If you had a man that you had a child with, it is best for you to be celibate until the child is 18 years old. This is why. I am sorry to tell you this but these men are so evil, you do not want to lose the love of your life because your ex was jealous of your new relationship and accused you of doing something with him that put your child in danger, because if that happens then the man that you love has every right to leave you and that is not sin because he has to protect himself from accusations. So it is best to just raise the children and focus on being a good mother, and wait on God and then God will give you a man who is like a Chief because you were holy when you waited.

I know I said I do not want a husband, but I do want to be married. But I understand the burden I have to carry. So yes, I believe in God for a new husband but I am going to wait and focus on doing ministry while I parent and raise my child.

Queen Diamond

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I Wan’t Another Baby

So , as everyone knows I’m getting a divorce and I really want another baby . I prayed and I was honestly looking at donor banks because I couldn’t find a man to reproduce with . I do not want a relationship but I do wan’t another baby. Before you judge no I’m not a crazy baby mom’s I’m actually a really good baby mother . Matter of fact my ex-husband still demanding more kids from me and I’m NOT having more with him , but with someone else .

  • The reason I don’t want a relationship is because I accepted that because people know who I am , really raunchy women do everything they can to get a man to cheat . See raunchy women thrive off of making a man unfaithful to a good woman . So I just made the decision that I want the baby and she can keep the man . Just give me the baby .
  • I guess cause I’m getting older I have this desire to birth . I’m actually really resenting ministry because one I don’t wan’t to do ministry and I do not want to pursue ministry instead of having more children . That’s my opinion .
  • Now I am one of those people who God makes do ministry . Do I want to ? Absolutely not . I rather be doing something else . But I know that God MAKES me do ministry and I do not want to .
  • I might get pregnant out of wedlock while pastoring . Hey look ! I said it here first . My divorce proves that I was right about marriage . Marriage is stupid and pointless . I been said that . So when in tried the marriage thing I was proven right that marriage is stupid and not worth it , I was right .
  • So yes I want a baby . Hopefully I have one soon , if it doesn’t happen by a certain time I’m just going to go to a donor bank and have one .

Queen Diamond

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Why I Am Getting A Divorce and Will Be A Baby Mom’s BUT NOT A Wife Again !

Hey Yall,

Today is 2024 and I have so much time today. I am about to pull a Katt Williams and tell why I am NEVER getting married again and why my ex-husband has to be the most disgusting and repulsive human being that I have ever met. Everyone knows that I used to have a cleaning business, so I like to keep things clean and neat. Before I begin to explain I must openly confess that GOD told me NOT to marry Ra’keem !!!! I have never in my life seen such a dirty and nasty BUM and filthy. One, when we first met he tried to make it seem like he was clean and had his stuff squared away… but when I started living with him and his family ? Ra’keem and his mother Tanya are the dirtiest and nasty people I have EVER met in my entire LIFE ! One, Ra’keem used to have a dog and he would let the dog urinate and poop on his bed and sheets and floor and he would NOT clean it for months at a time. He would let his daughter, Taylor play in a room with feces and urine and glass all over the floor and refuse to correct her and clean it up. Not only that, if Taylor did not want to bathe for weeks at a time he would get angry at anyone who would correct her and tell her to bathe and EVEN told her mother that she was not allowed to correct her own daughter…. NOT ONLY THAT < his nasty mother Tanya takes special needs people into church and then manipulates them and gets them involved into sexual relationships with her and she does not clean and had rats and gnats all over the house ! If that was not enough, when I moved to New Bern I had my own home and it was clean this fool came and was leaving my house nasty and had me arrested and lied on me for stuff I did not do. Then he had the never to go weeks at a time not brushing his teeth and showering and then went and told people that I was a “Sexual anorexic” which is NOT TRUE ! Nah, the fool was DIRTY and I used to pretend to be sleep just so she would not want to sleep with me because he was so disgusting and filthy and dirty . Then when I told him to clean up… HE REFUSED ! The NERVE then he has the nerve and then the police have the nerve to take his side , which was wrong ! Not ONLY THAT, I had to constantly tell him to STOP talking about sex and adult content infront of my daughter because it was wrong ! I came home from running errands and caught him watching him PG-13 movies infront of my two year old daughter !!!

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Oh , then it gets better.. the fool poops himself !!! The fool had the nerve to tell me he would rather be gay then be with his ex-wife April, (while I was pregnant) then I had to deal with MEN flirting with him infront of my daughter !! Not only that, he poops himself and then when I told him he had the entire smelling like s*** he got angry at me and told me that he did not have to take a shower ! He left his draws filled with poop in the floor for days and I had to clean it up because the house smelled like s*** !!! Then he got angry and stormed out when he pooped himself and refused to shower then he got upset got in the shower and stopped coming home (because I told him to shower). Then he had the NERVE to cheat with some woman he met at waffle house (I guess she dirty like him so they a good match) and have the nerve to leave the house nasty ! Not only that, he threw my baby birth certificate and social security card away to be spiteful because I had her stuff squared away . But guess what y’all? This man is a PASTOR !! His mother is a PASTOR !! His spiritual “grandmother” has her own street in Salisbury, Maryland “Reverend Annette Wilson” and her own day! This is crazier !!! Tell me why, his mother Tanya had started talking bad about Reverend after her funeral and lied on her at the FUNERAL ! Not only that, Tanya and Ra’keem was trying to take over her church and become the pastor !! Baby, they were only pretending for over 40 years just to take over her church when she died ! Boy ninjas is crazy !!! Lawdd, let me tell you something !! Then his brother jumped me (you already know I won ) because I did not want to be with him and his mother told him to do it because I was going to college ! Yeah, I had a little bruise after that incident but it was nothing major. Then the Prince George’s Police had the NERVE to tell me I was the one being immature and The Kinston Police told me that I was angry and jealous of Ra’keem because he was cheating on me (which was a LIE) !!!! Then , the property I was renting from Ra’keem caused the business communication to turn sour, BUT the building had MAJOR issues and then the property had the nerve to ask how in the world did invest almost $6,000 into the building and refused to give me the security deposit back and the building was unable to inhabit for church and NOT up to code! Baby what I officially started my business Jesus Is Lord Christ Chapel LLC in 2020, and in the four years in business this is what I learned .

  • Sometimes other black people HATE to see a black person doing well.
  • If you marry the wrong person , they will set you up and call the police on you because you have a business.
  • When GOD say do not marry someone THAT IS WHAT GOD MEANS !!
  • Business has ALOT of racism and the police will target you !!
  • Some buildings you rent from yield no return and the landlord will swindle you, do not waste your time arguing !!
  • Lastly, I need Jesus because baby the way my anger is set up ? Yeah I need to relax.

I am going to list all the evidence I have below. I must say that I would RATHER be a single mom than be with one of those trifling men ! Ra’keem tried to make be feel bad for leaving him and told me most black women do not have a husband and wish they had a husband , but fool you ugly dirty no body having females can have him !!! Baby , I relinquish him!! Tell him to stop texting my phone asking if I still love him take this ninja and his dirty a** and his crazy a** mama and family ! You hoes is NOT hurting my feelings take him !!!! You hoes can have all my exes because they all disgust me !

Below Is The Evidence To Show How NASTY Ra’keem Is

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Below Is The Evidence To Show HOW Trifling The Last Realty Company I Rented From & Spent & $6,000 Trying To Fix Something I Did NOT DO !!

Below is the cute little bruise that was left after his brother and family arranged for me to be jumped 3 weeks after I had a baby because they were jealous that I was going to college. Then Ra’keem says, “well you married me”… Ra’keem as I have told you before GOD TOLD ME NOT TO MARRY YOU . Ra’keem you are hideous inside and out and I wish I never met you. You repulse me and make my skin crawl and I truly hate you and wish I never married you on 2/21/2023. Ps.. yes I have freckles I know that.

  • Queen Diamond

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