Proverbs 18:14-16 The Passion Translation (TPT)

¹⁴The will to live sustains you when you’re sick,^[a]
but depression crushes courage and leaves you unable to cope.
¹⁵The spiritually hungry are always ready to learn more,
for their hearts are eager to discover new truths.
¹⁶Would you like to meet a very important person?
Take a generous gift.
It will do wonders to gain entrance into his presence.

My Testimony: Confessions Of A Survivor

When I was abused as a child, I was beaten to the point that I had to have a order of protection put on me. I was made to sleep on the floor, my mother would not get my hair done (unless it was a performance for other people), there were times I would be left at work with no way to get home… My mother hated me. She would call the police on me and laugh when they left and then get mad at me when I did not do good in school.

Psalms 27:10

I would skip school because the girls didn’t like me. They would lie and make up rumors about me and other boys.. Then I would go home and be abused.. Then I would go to church and have to pretend that everything was ok. I remember one time I told my mother what the girls were saying to me at school and her response was “That’s nothing I say worse stuff to you.”

On top of that she told me I was bum and a failure… I would be just like my father and she expected me to fail highschool, but by HIS Grace I didn’t .

What Does This Have To Do With College

I remember when I was in Highschool and God told me “You will be the first Doctor in your family” .. I told my mother and she said “We’ll see”

Ezekiel 2:5

Again… when I was in the wilderness God woke me up out of my sleep and said “You shall be a doctor of medicine”

But what do you do when you’re life looks nothing like what God promised ? Well what promise did ?

What Is God Doing Through This Hard Season Of Depression

God is delivering you from ungodly expectations. When you are abused, people will beat you down and then make you feel bad when you are failing and suffering. In your mind if you don’t have a A you are all of these bad names and you call down curses on yourself… But does a education mean that you are going to be successful ?

Ecclesiastes 9:10-11 New Living Translation (NLT)

¹⁰Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave,^[a] there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom.

¹¹I have observed something else under the sun. The fastest runner doesn’t always win the race, and the strongest warrior doesn’t always win the battle. The wise sometimes go hungry, and the skillful are not necessarily wealthy. And those who are educated don’t always lead successful lives. It is all decided by chance, by being in the right place at the right time.

The right place at the right time is your position in prayer… You may feel bad because your “friends” boast and brag about the straight A’s and you have a B or a C and sometimes a D… but maybe God is using this to draw you closer to HIM.

Proverbs 28:6 New Living Translation (NLT)

⁶Better to be poor and honest
than to be dishonest and rich.

Don’t give up… and if God tells you to take the class over do what He says. There was a time where even Samuel failed. Is he not Israel’s greatest judge? In this Christian walk you are going to encounter failure, the high’s and low’s of life… But in your highs and lows don’t allow the Devil (Matthew 6:13 EASY) to make you feel like you have to go back to abusive parents, family, or family members because you are going through a hard time right now. Just keep trusting in God.

Ruth 1:16-17 New Living Translation (NLT)

¹⁶But Ruth replied, “Don’t ask me to leave you and turn back. Wherever you go, I will go; wherever you live, I will live. Your people will be my people, and your God will be my God. ¹⁷Wherever you die, I will die, and there I will be buried. May the Lord punish me severely if I allow anything but death to separate us!”

During this hard time of depression, fast and pray because maybe God needs to talk to you about His will and not yours (Proverbs 16:9).

All though this a hard time, against all odds you are going to be ok….

Ecclesiastes 11:7 New Living Translation (NLT)

Advice for Young and Old

⁷Light is sweet; how pleasant to see a new day dawning.

Tips To Get Through This

Download the Bible App (Make room if you don’t have any space)
Start praying in the Secret Place
Find a GOOD church home
No matter what time you got out of bed today… if GOD is telling you to pray and do a devotion listen to Him
Go on a walk with God and buy something if he tells you to.
Most importantly .. TRUST HIM Proverbs 3:4-6
Ask God for godly friends … I did not give you the spirit of fear but of power and of love and a sound mind 2 Timothy 1:7

*Click Here* Here is a link that are some awesome and amazing prayers to help you through this depression

The Bible says to worship opens doors (Psalm 34:9-11) below is a good song to listen to during this hard time.