Managing My Regret Of Entering Ministry

Overcoming Regret 

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Lately 

Lately I have been in deep thought because I will be 30 in 3 years. I have a registered church, books, and a business at the age of 26 (my birthday is in April) but I feel empty. I do not feel fulfilled in ministry. Truth be told I never wanted ministry and as a prophet it has been a lonely and difficult road. It has been difficult to find a spouse that makes me happy (it has not happened), constant rejection and betrayal by almost everyone has almost made me one of the most angry people in the world, and yet my childhood still angered me the most. Lord do not throw being a veteran into the mix because people then like to call the police like I am some threat to society or something for being in the Marines. 

I realize my call is never to fit the crowd. But I wonder how many preachers out there have my same mentality.. How can you find joy in something you truly never wanted to do? If I wanted to be a preacher then maybe I would be happy but I did not. I guess that’s the hard part of the call of a prophet.. Prophet’s tend to endure a season of truly being miserable and without a cause. It is not easy watching all of these wayward preachers listen to secular music and post how perfect their family is while God in my opinion is being overly strict on you. 

I know that I am not the only one. Many days I wished I could go into a different profession and truly do something else because I could care less about people. In my mind I have a daughter, I have other responsibilities and I could care less about the church or other “souls” . I’m a whole mother. 

Sometimes I regret even entering into ministry because it truly was not worth it. I regret going to church because of the persecution that I suffered even from “apostolic” ministries. I regret it.. Yet I cannot take back my success even though I wish I could. But to those pastor’s out there that truly feel like giving up, trust me you are not alone. It is crazy how you open a ministry after God tells you and then these bums have the nerve to attack your every motive and move as if they could handle being in your position. I remember one day some idiot told me that God would give my assignment to someone else lol yeah ok. Be my guest, feel free to walk in my shoes. I would be glad to hand you everything and go back to the way I want to live… but that is neither here nor there. It is very ironic that people attribute to your ministry and then believe that they could do or do it better. How hilarious. Needless to say… to every frustrated pastor out there male and female you are not alone. To every minister in a miserable marriage yet dying on the inside in ministry you are not alone. But especially to everyone prophet who feels bitter and angry you are not alone. Being a prophet and watching everyone prosper while you’re being “obedient” has got to be one of the top 10 worst things on this earth.. I’m not even lying. But I want you to know that your emotions and how you feel are normal.. 

Apostle Diamond Chessier 

January 17, 2023 Daily Devotion

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Devotion : Peace In The Storm 

Last night my spirit was grieved by somethings that are to come. In the midst of this terrible persecution that is happening around the world the Lord told me, “this is happening because the parents of the two witnesses are on the earth”. We are living in Armageddon. This is the last days. But yet a prophecy must be fulfilled that the two witnesses must be on the earth. As Christian’s around the world, I pray that you hold on to the Bible like never before. God is a refuge and a strong tower in the day of trouble. In the midst of a tornado, God will keep you safe even if it’s a city away. In the midst of a hurricane, God will protect you even if it’s over 10 miles away. God is faithful and he loves you. Selah. 

Apostle Diamond Chessier 

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Scripture Meditation:

Psalm 121King James Version

121 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.

My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.

He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.

Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand.

The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.

The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.

The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.

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Daily Bread

Genesis 5New International Version

From Adam to Noah

5 This is the written account(A) of Adam’s family line.(B)

When God created mankind, he made them in the likeness of God.(C) He created them(D) male and female(E) and blessed them. And he named them “Mankind”[a] when they were created.

When Adam had lived 130 years, he had a son in his own likeness, in his own image;(F) and he named him Seth.(G) After Seth was born, Adam lived 800 years and had other sons and daughters.Altogether, Adam lived a total of 930 years, and then he died.(H)

6 When Seth had lived 105 years, he became the father[b] of Enosh.(I) 7 After he became the father of Enosh, Seth lived 807 years and had other sons and daughters. 8 Altogether, Seth lived a total of 912 years, and then he died.

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Genesis 4New International Version

Cain and Abel

4 Adam[a] made love to his wife(A) Eve,(B) and she became pregnant and gave birth to Cain.[b](C) She said, “With the help of the Lord I have brought forth[c] a man.” Later she gave birth to his brother Abel.(D)

Now Abel kept flocks, and Cain worked the soil.(E)3 In the course of time Cain brought some of the fruits of the soil as an offering(F) to the Lord.(G)4 And Abel also brought an offering—fat portions(H)from some of the firstborn of his flock.(I) The Lordlooked with favor on Abel and his offering,(J) 5 but on Cain and his offering he did not look with favor. So Cain was very angry, and his face was downcast.

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Genesis 3New International Version

The Fall

3 Now the serpent(A) was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?(B)

The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,(C) but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.’”(D)

4 “You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman.(E) 5 “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God,(F) knowing good and evil.”