Yahweh is the God who continually saves me. I weep before you night and day. Please bend down and listen to my sobbing, for my life is riddled with troubles and death is just around the corner! Everyone sees my life ebbing out. They consider me a hopeless case and see me as a dead man. They’ve all left me here to die, helpless, like one who is doomed for death. They’re convinced you’ve forsaken me, certain that you’ve forgotten me completely— abandoned, pierced, with nothing to look forward to but death. They have discarded me and thrown me down into the deepest darkness as into a bottomless pit. I feel your wrath and it’s a heavy weight upon me, drowning me beneath a sea of sorrow. Pause in his presence Why did you turn all my friends against me? You’ve made me like a cursed man in their eyes. No one wants to be with me now. You’ve caught me in a trap with no way out. Every day I beg for your help. Can’t you see my tears? My eyes are swollen with weeping. My arms are wide, longing for mercy, but you’re nowhere to be found. How can those who are cut off from your care even know that you are there? How can I rise up to praise you if I’m dead and gone? Pause in his presence Who can give thanks for your love in the graveyard? Who preaches your faithfulness in the place of destruction? Does death’s darkness declare your miracles? How can anyone who’s in the grave, where all is forgotten, remember how you keep your promises? Lord, you know my prayer before I even whisper it. At each and every sunrise you will continue to hear my cry until you answer. O Lord, why have you thrown my life away? Will you keep turning the other way every time I call out to you? I’ve had to live in poverty and trouble all my life. Now I’m humiliated, broken, and helpless before your terrors and I can’t take it anymore. I’m overwhelmed by your burning anger. I’ve taken the worst you could give me and I’m speechless before you. I’m drowning beneath the waves of this sorrow, cut off with no one to help. All my loved ones and friends keep far away from me, leaving me all alone with only darkness as my friend.
Psalms 88:1‭-‬18 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/psa.88.1-18.TPT

Man How Powerful Is This Psalm

So this post is spontaneous. As I was working I looked at Psalm 88:15 in the TPT and I begin to meditate on this word…. How many times as Christians do we feel completely and utterly helpless and depressed. We feel like God has completely and utterly left us.. Like He is no where to be found. I know I do feel like this ALOT! If I might add. But you know who also did ?

Jesus ….

For three hours, beginning at noon, darkness came over the earth. And at three o’clock Jesus shouted with a mighty voice in Aramaic, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” —that is, “My God, My God, why have you deserted me?” Some who were standing near the cross misunderstood and said, “He’s calling for Elijah.” One bystander ran and got a sponge, soaked it with sour wine, then put it on a stick and held it up for Jesus to drink. But the rest said, “Leave him alone! Let’s see if Elijah comes to rescue him.” Jesus passionately cried out, took his last breath , and gave up his spirit.
Matthew 27:45‭-‬50 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.27.45-50.TPT

Hebrews 4:15 tells us that we have a high priests that understands us… with that being said… Let me tell you my story.

All of my life I have been abused. I’ve been raped. Made fun of for it. Been cursed out after I told I was raped. Used for sex. A prostitute. Homeless. I told a old boyfriend what happened to me and he called me a degrading name. I struggled so heavy with hating God. Mainly because the abuse came from people in the “church”… but guess what ? Jesus was abused by “church” people to… Matthew 26 & 27…. I remember battling heavy depression and God told me

“It’s because you’re going to the wrong source”

• Sometimes God will put you in wilderness seasons to heal you.

For so long I was so angry at God , at myself, and just simply life. But now I see that my hard times came so I could be healed.. So I can help someone else.

So if you’ve been raped or molested tell someone and I will intercede for you .

If you’re homeless keep going.

And someone you know is in a occult or has been hurt by someone at church tell someone.

If you’re contemplating suicide please … dont do it. There is hope. Love you.

But because of our sins he was wounded, beaten because of the evil we did. We are healed by the punishment he suffered, made whole by the blows he received.
Isaiah 53:5 GNT
https://bible.com/bible/68/isa.53.5.GNT