Category: Doubt

Not Being Physically Attracted To A Man Is Not Sin

1 Corinthians 7-9New International Version

Concerning Married Life

7 Now for the matters you wrote about: “It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.

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So, I have come to this conclusion after running to the divorce line that I am not attracted to men and I do not believe that it is sin. No, I am not a homosexual and I am not a lesbian, however I have zero attraction towards men. I tried for years to make it work with men , but the things they do is just disgusting and when you are not attracted to someone and then they do something that is wrong it just makes them repulsive. When I was 19 years old I had a man lie and get someone pregnant behind my back (and he married her and they divorced), my ex-husband was a nasty and lazy slob who was a compulsive liar, and I just do not have the desire to be with a man. The thought of a man touching me makes me cringe, honestly. Now, I am not anti-marriage. When I am in public very handsome men do stare and try to get my attention, but I just walk away because I do not know how to tell them that I truly honestly not attracted to a man. I only married my husband trying to deny that, but now after what he did I accept that I have to accept myself and be okay with who I am. I wish nothing but the best for people who get married. But do not try to force your beliefs of marriage on me and I will not force my beliefs on non-marriage on you. I do not need a man to start a business. I do not need a man to provide, I can do that all myself. So you have the answer. No, Diamond is not a lesbian. Yes, Diamond is a woman who just simply is not attracted to men and that is not sin.

Queen Diamond

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I am officially done with ministry

I am officially done with ministry. 

A few years ago I felt like God had chosen me to be in ministry even though I hated it with all my heart. Lately, I have been doing the bare minimum just so God will leave me alone and stop afflicting  me.  But after making a terrible decision to marry my husband and dealing with the stupidity that comes with the church I made the decision that I am done with ministry. It’s not worth it. I’m not doing it and I do not care if someone else is a void filler because I refuse to preach. So, do not worry everyone, no I am not off the deep end, I just do not care anymore and I am done. 

Seriously, 

Diamond 

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My Testimony To Help Other Young Women: The Truth About Abortion Grief

The Truth About Abortion Grief

Revelation 21:4

English Standard Version

4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

A Few Years Ago.. 

A few years ago, I wrote a book of Poems dedicated to my angel baby. I was grieving so badly and battling depression, because I just had another baby but I began to wonder what it would feel like having him. I reached out to his father, which was a bad decision I might add… because I was grieving and it did not end well like it always does not end well. So I made the decision that I would never reach out again , but I also realized that God had entrusted me to help other young women who were grieving from having a abortion and suffering the rejection from the father. 

The Story Behind Your Decision Is Probably Really Painful 

One thing I am not going to do is , point a condemning finger at you because God did not point a condemning finger at me when I had a abortion. Yes, I felt like God was disappointed in me but at that time I did not know the Lord. I grew up in church but I saw so much craziness that I became an atheist, it was after that abortion and the pain and tears from it that I became a Christian. 

The circumstances surrounding my decision were extremely hurtful and painful, and it is something that even now God has to heal me from because I regret aborting that child because I know the child would have been beautiful and intelligent and that God had a plan for the baby, I made a mistake. But one thought that was eating away at me is that even if he did not love me (the father) and he did not want me, it’s the fact that God knew how much he did not want me and blessed me with a baby that did love me and I had a abortion… That’s the painful side of my decision. 

To this day, he still is the same and I don’t really care (the father). That’s how he is. But I realized that my constant reaching out to him is because I was so depressed by what I had done that I wanted some connection to the baby (I learned this in psychology). So I did not miss him, I missed the baby and the baby came from him. That was a very tough and hard realization that I had to come to and it came by praying and talking to God about my mistake. 

I recommend you to pray and ask God for forgiveness and repent, especially if you did not know the Lord. The truth about abortion’s is that it is extremely painful to deal with. Sad to say commercial’s lie and make it seem like taking the pill is a easy fixer for an abortion, but they are not telling you about the suicide attempts, depression, and self-harm that comes after having a abortion. 

Don’t Cover For Him 

I had to accept that he will never care about me (the father of the baby). I had to accept that he does not care about the abortion and he never will. I am the mom, and I battle all of the grief by myself. I am sorry if you are faced with that same truth. If he does not care about you and he does not care about the abortion, I want you to know that God cares a whole lot about you. I had to accept my truth and give it God. I do not want you to commit suicide . I remember when I wanted to die because I wanted to be in heaven with my baby because it’s really mentally tormenting and  traumatizing. I thought I would be happier in heaven with my baby. I do not want you to commit suicide. God told me I had to live on. You have to live on and you have to trust God , that he will bless you with another opportunity to have a baby. My opportunity was with Ruth and she has brought a lot of healing from the pain of not having my other baby. 

The hardest part is that before I ever admitted what happened prophet’s would come up ; to me and say , “God said forgive yourself it is not your fault”. Collapsing in the spirit, everytime I would scream and cry because it was so painful. Then I had a dream about him, that he was in heaven running and playing hide and go seek with Jesus. He was so beautiful he had my skin complexion, his father’s eyes, but they were dark blue, and dark beautiful curly black hair. He was gorgeous. God said in the dream, “Name him Nehemiah because I sent him to comfort you because you were not loved”. 

I went through alot, but now despite issues I accept what God has to offer me. My current husband said he wanted us to have another baby, and I know that God is going to bless me with another boy one day to comfort me from all of the painful things that occurred in that situation. 

The Conclusion Is Forgive Yourself 

God wants you to forgive yourself, turn from your sin, repent , and never do it again. God wants to heal you from the pain of the rejection that led to that abortion. God does not want you to commit suicide because the father did not love you , which led to you aborting that child. Sadly, men do not feel the grief that a woman feels after having a abortion. I am the mother so while he parties, I cry because I had the duty to carry that child and I failed in that. Even if you failed, I want you to know that God is giving you grace to start over and have another family. Take my advice, and do not ever reach out to him again. Do not ever check on him and see how he is doing again. Do not ever care about his well being again. I am sorry, but he doesn’t love you and you have to accept it and move on. I had to accept that he never wanted me and never cared about me, and it was painful but I accepted it and I moved on. Move on beautiful, it is going to be okay. 

Love Mixed With Faith, 

Apostle Diamond S. Chessier 

Isaiah 40:31

King James Version

31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Copyright Precious-Diamond Sandre’a Chessier

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Don’t Base Your Christianity Off Of People

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. – Romans 12:2

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YouTube Can Be Informative

Today I saw something and I must say God convicted me . I saw a video discussing “Mean Girls” of the church . Yes you read that right and yes there are mean girls in the church . As a new Christian I wrestled with Christianity for years because of “people”. I have had people say God bless me and turn around and do some of the most evil things to me . I have been lied on and slandered by false Christians . I have had false Christians make fake websites and put my actual phone number on Craigslist when i was younger . People have said some of the most evil rumors . I helped a girl when she had a miscarriage in the church and she turned around and listed me as a prostitute on Craigslist behind my back (she was a Marine also ). People have lied on me in the church . I have been sued , framed , I mean honestly I have been through it all . Yet , in the midst of this God had to remind me that it wasn’t the world who started off persecuting Jesus … it started in the church . See the world has to align to the spiritual climate of the church . If the church is persecuting Jesus then so will the world . I say this to say , don’t leave Christianity because of mean girls in the church … God would rather you stay home and read the Bible for yourself instead of leaving him .

Sincere Truth ,

Mrs.Diamond Chessier

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I Kind Of Don’t Care Anymore

John 16:33New International Version

33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcomethe world.” – John 16:33

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Ya’ll I’m getting older . In three years I will be 30 and I have to face the fact about a lot in my life . I realize that I don’t really care anymore . In 2023, I went through a straight wilderness and baby no one was there for me . People showed there true colors . I thought people cared , nah they didn’t . They saw my success and could have cared less that I was down. I made the decision that 2023 was the last year I would care or help someone , who doesn’t care or help me . I realized that in order to be happy , I have to let go of people who want me to help them but don’t want me to succeed. Did you see that ? There are people who want you to tell them they are special and that they are chosen , but they don’t want you to be special and chosen . Baby let it go . In 2024 , we’re claiming peace , serenity , and tranquility. No more unblocking people who blocked you . No more checking in on people . No more hoping people change . No more encouraging people who are praying and hoping for your downfall . Move on and move on in a important way .

God got you honey ,

Diamond

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A Man Should Never Let Another Man Disrespect His Woman

Joshua 1:9New International Version

9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9

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Years ago I watched a movie about a woman who was married . She had a husband , he wouldn’t protect her she cheated contracted HIV/AIDS and her life was ruined . I want you to know that that movie is fiction and NOT reality . I am not saying that a adulterous woman will not contract a disease but what I am saying is that a good man does not mean you let another man disrespect your woman .
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God made a man to be a protector . God did not make a man to be intune with some “feminine side “ because there is no feminine side in God made man . When I married my husband God had to teach him how to control his feelings . He was very rough but he was indeed a protector . The problem was is that because everyone knows he is a protector, they waited until he left because they were scared of him .
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There was a time that common sense would tell a man protect your girlfriend , baby mother , fiancé, or wife or whoever she may be . But now it’s sad that men are not really aware of this . The truth of the matter is there are grown men who act like females that are probably jealous of your girlfriend because she’s pretty . Do you see that ? There are grown men who are jealous of your girlfriend , baby mother , fiancée , or wife because she is pretty and she is natural woman and you being a man have to protect her . Cowardly men target women , but there are a whole lot of cowardly men in this generation form the young and old secretly jealous of your girlfriend or significant other . So be a God – fearing man and protect her . In the beginning my marriage was very hard , because I didn’t like what he was doing but God told me I had to teach him because no one taught him how to be a good husband . So I encourage you man of God, to allow God to teach you how to be a man and be a good husband , and how to be a protector .

Godbless You ,

Mrs . Diamond Jackson (formerly known as Diamond Chessier )

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