Jeremiah 1:7New International Version
7 But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you.
Category: Beauty
I Don’t Need Or Care About Your Advice
Yes… This Is What I Like
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you [and approved of you as My chosen instrument], And before you were born I consecrated you [to Myself as My own]; I have appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” – Jeremiah 1:5
- I like wearing the color black – no I am not gothic , I am not a witch, and it does not symbolize death. Amen ? Amen
- Yes I like make-up , and looking good around the house – no I am not extra, I do not care if you do not like it then don’t come around then … Amen ? Amen .
- Yes , I have long natural hair.. But I wear WEAVE and I wrap my head when I don’t feel like having my WEAVE in – Amen ? Amen.
- Yes , I get fake nails – and ? Are you paying for it .. nope ! Goodbye then.
- Yes .. my attitude is mean and I am sassy… goodbye now. God loves me. Lol.
- Yes… I am ghetto but classy at the same time. I am ghetto classy,
- Yes I am a prophetess.. I know you say I don’t look like one … could care less .. goodbye now.
- Yes I am unfazed and unbothered and nothing bothers me… so what ? Goodbye.
- Yes I am cool , calm, and collected. I don’t like nerds or weirdo’s or strange people. Amen.
- Yes I am Christian. The Lord Is Kind To Me. Amen.
- Yes I like a man that lowkey skateboard and wear skateboard clothing… but I can’t skateboard? Toodles.
- Yes, I like a man with tattoos and have their ears pierced and wear silver chains around their neck… amen? Praise God. I’ll take him through deliverance don’t worry.
I Had To Accept It
Since 2015, I have been living my life to appease church people and God had to set me free today. I had to throw some clothes away and I had to throw some ideas away. I have to be me and no one else. I cannot pretend anymore. I can’t. I have tried to make so many people happy in how I dress and look so that people would feel comfortable around me. But now… as a grown woman. I do not care anymore. If my presence makes you insecure? Then I do not care. Something is wrong with you and not me. I will not let another woman or somebody change me again. The only man that I will change for is Jesus. Today I am on my journey of becoming ME again. I will marry who I WANT to be with. There is a certain type of man that I want and I will have it. I do not care about your advice or what you think I should do. Never again will I consult about my ministry and my decisions. I am a grown woman.
to reveal his Son to me, so that I might preach the Good News about him to the Gentiles, I did not go to anyone for advice, – Galatians 1:16
Stop Asking For Advice
Understand that if you ask a good trustworthy spouse that is different. But from this day forward, I will NEVER ask for advice again. It took me 7 years to see that advice almost ruined my life. Advice from the wrong person can destroy you in a way you could never imagine. Stop running to random people about your life and focus on God.
Don’t be fooled by those who say such things, for “bad company corrupts good character.” – 1 Corinthians 15:33
Thought Process
Thought Process
But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart. – Luke 2:19
Last year I was speaking to someone that I still love and care for. I was still angry and bitter about something that occurred when we were younger. I said some things that I regret. But what he said to me was, “I hope he is a better man to you than I was”. I remember that day because I closed my laptop in anger. I walked away and brushed it off, still angry. At that moment I felt like I finally got my vindication for what happened… But no… That was not my vindication. That was something else… God was about to heal my thought process.
Little by little, my marriage unraveled. Little by little the marriage became more and more evil. I endured things that I cannot even imagine. Because my soon to be ex-husband would not listen to me, the landlord waited two weeks before the end of the lease to lie and say that we would not leave the home. That’s a lie… I GLADLY left the uninhabitable home. Because my husband would not listen to me his brother waited until he left and jumped me after I had a baby (I won btw… Almost got arrested though). I don’t want to continue on all that happened … but out of everything that transpired in the old relationship between me and that man… I can honestly say that he never did this to me.
As We Are Closing The Year
I have been forced to sit back and talk to God about a lot. I had to tell God he was right… Because in 2019 God told me that me and that other man would be back together… OfCourse being stubborn I wouldn’t accept it and now look at me. What makes it worse is that I literally told him that my “new man” (ex-husband) moved me into the house, had a lot of money, was an accountant, and all of these other things… but what does the Bible say…?
And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? – Mark 8:36
Yes, my soon to be ex-husband had a job as an accountant … but … I don’t even think I will be ready to tell what he did… or if I will ever be ready. Yes… he had a bachelors but… he hurt me in ways I can’t explain. Yeah… he moved me into his 4-bedroom house… But it was HELL, he constantly made bad decisions because of his pride and ego and would not listen to me and now we are being sued for something that we did not even do. Yes… he was a youth pastor at a mega-church… but he… I can’t even say it. It’s terrible.
Moral Of The Story
I can’t explain how I feel. The days when I woke up in this terrible marriage with black circles under my eyes. The days I did not recognize myself. The days I couldn’t move out of the bed for MONTHS … For TWO YEARS I looked in the mirror and did not recognize myself.
How do I look? A man that I secretly love asked me for another chance, I told him no and told him about my ex-husband and now look at me? Lesson learned. You have to be so careful how you treat people… Because you have no idea how it is going to come back to you.
I married my ex-husband because I thought it would look good for ministry. Here I am an international prophetess and I am married to a former pastor at a megachurch. Sweetheart, that was the worst decision of my life. I have heard so many horror stories from first ladies that said don’t ever marry a pastor. I thought they were crazy… Nope… You would not believe what they secretly do.
But the crazy thing is… God told me not to marry my ex-husband. I am thankful for his grace that carried me through that like Gomer and Jonah. I regret my ex-husband.
Thought Process
God takes us through battles to warn other people. To the young man… Be very careful marrying for ministry and how it looks. Pursue God and pursue happiness. You would be very surprised and shocked at how evil some women are in the church. To young ladies… DO NOT marry a pastor. Pursue God and let God make you happy with a man that will make you smile and happy.
Now I Want A Second Chance
Now I want a second chance to listen to what God has to say. I want a second chance with the man that God has for me.
But in that coming day no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the LORD; their vindication will come from me. I, the LORD, have spoken! – Isaiah 54:17
Verse Of The Day
Habakkuk 3:17-19New International Version
17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
19 The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to tread on the heights.
For the director of music. On my stringed instruments.
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God Want’s You To Enjoy A Cheerful Life
Break The Curse Of Maternal Hatred & Abuse
As I was reading the word of God today a line appeared and it said “identifies the speaker as Nehemiah, son of Hachaliah” . Lately , God has been speaking to me a lot about motherhood and parenting in my personal time with God . There are not many good examples of motherhood especially in the church. There are not good examples of loving our children and preparing our children to carry the torch. Although , Nehemiah authored a book of the Holy Bible , his father Hachaliah planted the seed so that Nehemiah could go forth .
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Bigger Opportunities
Maybe Nehemiah father didn’t have the same opportunities as Nehemiah did. Maybe Nehemiah father HAD to work on the farm all day to provide for his family … Maybe Nehemiah family was born into poverty and he HAD to work long hours to get his family out of poverty ? Maybe all this is true .
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Personal Experience
When I was in High-school although I was accepted into a AP Program for gifted children , I wasn’t allowed to do homework when I got home because my abusive family made me and wanted me to fail out of the program because according to their words they wanted me to be a bum like my father
– but I would NEVER do that to my own child … My daughter Ruth is so smart and so advanced that she shocks many at her level of intelligence… now only if she could not climb out her crib and climb out when she thinks I’m not looking that would be nice 😂
I didn’t have another option beside the military actually truth be told I never wanted to go into the Marines , I wanted to go into the Army buuuuttt again they wouldn’t sign the papers for any other branch because there was a weird obsession of making it look like I wanted to be like someone’s creepy spouse
- with Ruth … she is NOT ALLOWED to enter into the military .. she better figure it out , now when I have a son maybe … because God has told me something about my future son . But my daughter ? NO !
I went through a lot of abuse as a child , things that I’m to ashamed to even speak of , but because she was a police officer she abused me and did some of the most evil and terrible things to me and then called the police on me and 9 times out of 10 they believed her because she was a police officer , but there was 1 police officer who said that God had a plan for me
- That will NEVER be Ruth’s story , I would never call the police on my daughter and I would never let my husband abuse her . I would never purposely make her fail school to become a statistic. Because I love her .
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Truth is while reading this one simple line I understood Nehemiah’s father … I didn’t have opportunities… I didn’t have chances my life was hard . While people enjoyed Highschool I had to work at jobs to get out of the house as soon as I turned 18 . But that will never be my daughter’s story . Nehemiah father probably didn’t have the same chance as his son , but it’s the fact that his suffering provided a way for his son to honor him and carry on his legacy .
I get tired of hearing the same story of “well the only reason she did that is because that happened to her” that’s a bunch of crap . I didn’t abuse my daughter and I never had the desire to do it . Just because you were abused doesn’t give you the right to abuse someone else . Love your child and break the curse !
Isaiah 54:17
King James Version
17 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.
What was difficult is that even though people knew I was raped , abused , molested somehow some way it was always my fault . In the church they said I was raped or harassed because I had a spirit in me . Now you could imagine my journey to Christ was not easy . I left the church because I didn’t want anything to do with Christian’s because of what I saw . But when I was in the wilderness , I was broken down so low that I had to call out to God . I had to find God for myself , I didn’t come to God at church or through prophecy , but through The Holy Bible .
There are some days I struggle as a mother . My daughter is beautiful so she gets a lot of attention … smh we were actually in the store the other day and a 4-5 year old boy literally broke his neck staring at her I got angry but honestly … it scared me a little . It scared me because I know what I have been through .. and that’s a whole other battle . Sometimes it does scare me when I see the attention she gets … people always tell me that they are obsessed with my daughter … but daily I trust him (God) for help in raising a beautiful daughter … because I just don’t want her to experience the pain I went through because of beauty .
If I didn’t do anything else on this earth , I want my legacy to be remembered as a woman who taught mother’s to love God and not abuse their children . Especially, for multi-cultural women (Titus). We have to break that curse of hating our daughters and children , we have to break that ! Multi-cultural women we have to do better and love our daughters and sons.. even if no one loved you .
Love Sandre’a ,
Real Life Real Jesus 