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January Monthly Devotion

Monthly Devotion 

January 1-31, 2024 – Daily Verse & Devotion – The Importance Of Your Testimony 

Revelation 12 : 1 -11

Revelation 12:1-11New International Version

The Woman and the Dragon

12 A great sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head. 2 She was pregnant and cried out in pain as she was about to give birth. 3 Then another sign appeared in heaven: an enormous red dragon with seven heads and ten horns and seven crowns on its heads. 4 Its tail swept a third of the stars out of the sky and flung them to the earth. The dragon stood in front of the woman who was about to give birth, so that it might devour her child the moment he was born. 5 She gave birth to a son, a male child, who “will rule all the nations with an iron scepter.”[a] And her child was snatched up to God and to his throne. 6 The woman fled into the wilderness to a place prepared for her by God, where she might be taken care of for 1,260 days.

7 Then war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back. 8 But he was not strong enough, and they lost their place in heaven. 9 The great dragon was hurled down—that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him.

10 Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say:

“Now have come the salvation and the power
    and the kingdom of our God,
    and the authority of his Messiah.
For the accuser of our brothers and sisters,
    who accuses them before our God day and night,
    has been hurled down.
11 They triumphed over him
    by the blood of the Lamb
    and by the word of their testimony;
they did not love their lives so much
    as to shrink from death.

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Do You Understand Your Testimony? 

In life there are many difficult trials that you may encounter . Honestly , in 2023 I went through some of the toughest trials I have endured as an adult woman that led to the process of divorce . I didn’t want to share my testimony, yet God reminded me in the book of Esther that Queen Esther was warned by her uncle Mordecai that if she did not speak and do what God said then she would perish . Your testimony is keeping you from perishing . Understand that if God carried you through a storm , then it was meant that he would get glory in your testimony. Remember that . So today , do not be embarrassed about your testimony but instead share it so that other people can be encouraged and persuaded to follow Jesus . 

May The Lord Bless You , 

Apostle Diamond 

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I am officially done with ministry

I am officially done with ministry. 

A few years ago I felt like God had chosen me to be in ministry even though I hated it with all my heart. Lately, I have been doing the bare minimum just so God will leave me alone and stop afflicting  me.  But after making a terrible decision to marry my husband and dealing with the stupidity that comes with the church I made the decision that I am done with ministry. It’s not worth it. I’m not doing it and I do not care if someone else is a void filler because I refuse to preach. So, do not worry everyone, no I am not off the deep end, I just do not care anymore and I am done. 

Seriously, 

Diamond 

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The Truth About Divorce As A Single Black Mom

God Is Not Going To Bless Them

Galatians 6:7-9

King James Version 7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

God Is Not Blessing Them 

As I was faced with the very real truth about divorce and all that I have gone through I realized that my marriage cannot be revived. Today God was speaking to me about my love life and the men I have dated in the past and the Lord said, “let them go”. Yes. God told me to let ALL of them go. I realized that because I have become more well known that I have dealt with jealousy and cruelty to a whole new level. I realized that the racism I dealt with mixed with the constant bad decisions that my husband makes has caused me to accept that I am done. 

As a single mother, I realized that my husband’s constant bad decisions have severely impacted my daughter and I and I are done. No more back and forth , I am getting a divorce. I do not understand how my soon to be ex-husband could make such bad decisions and then somehow try to play the victim and say he hates himself for what he did to me. The thing is every relationship does not end because of infidelity. My soon to be ex-husband did not cheat but he is a compulsive liar. He lies about everything, he will look me in my face and lie and then get upset that I do not believe his lie and continue to lie. But the lying has gotten so bad that he has put my daughter and I  in severe danger more than once. He takes better care of his other daughter than mine and then gets angry when I address it. He has done everything he can to stop me from working to earn my own money. He has lied and caused me to be in legal battles that were not my own, and thankfully I have had victory over them. Yet, what God has told me is, “get ready to go”. Yes, God told me to leave him. 

God helped me to see that the provision that my soon to be ex-husband currently has is only to provide for Ruth and I. God made me see that this generation of men must reap what they have sown. The things that this generation of men do is plain evil and it is wrong. I look forward to the day of my divorce. Being married to him was a nightmare. I gave him a house filled with love and peace and he can vouch for that which is why he doesn’t want a divorce. He keeps pushing back the date and he looks shocked when I say we’re getting a divorce. My ex-husband and I were married in New Bern, North Carolina. In North Carolina the rules for divorce are very complicated. Both people have to prove that they were not with each other for

1 year before they can legally file for divorce. We have both agreed that I will have full sole custody of her and he does not pay child support that is the deal. 

But honestly, God TOLD me not to marry him. I will never forget that day I got married I had a dream the night before God said , “Don’t do it ! Don’t marry him” ! So because I married God told me that he was going to show who he really is. Yes he did and I want out. Marrying him was a mistake. I have never seen a man like him. For a man to make bad decisions that cause a domino effect on his family and be only concerned about a coke head’s problems ? Yeah.. I’m good. Lesson learned. 

As a black woman I understand that self-worth must be taught. As a black woman who is becoming a single mother I am very disgusted by what happened in my marriage. He told me he hates himself for what he did to me and he does because I was truly a good wife. I do not have time for the influence of women to constantly cause him to make terrible decisions. 

Someone who is a bad decision maker can and will be the end of a marriage and end of a family. Because those bad decisions lead to serious consequences. As I am walking on water, I accept that this marriage was a mistake. Like I have told him the only good thing I got from it was my daughter. 

Every Birthday for me and my daughter he has ruined, yet he expects everyone to hurdle around his other child and Ruth and I are not doing it. I told my daughter the other day she is no one’s embarrassment and she is no one’s back up plan. I will NOT teach my daughter to allow any man to give her bread crumbs and not even her father. He already knows that his family is NOT allowed to see Ruth and it is because of their drug usage. 

As a single mother, I have had to learn some valuable lessons about obedience. Everything I worked for he tore down. As a dating mom, I realize that a reason I do not think I will be quick to date again is because it is terrible being married to someone who will ruin everything you worked for. For my husband to ruin what I worked for is a different level of pain. This man is not some bum I met on the street, this is my husband. I do not know if I will be able to trust another man right away because I cannot allow a man to cause me to lose what I worked for. Mentally, emotionally, and physically I am done with this marriage and my daughter and I are moving on. I refuse to date anyone from my past because I will NOT allow another irresponsible man to put my daughter and I at risk of losing everything again. In this situation I was NOT chasing a man, this was my HUSBAND , a man that I did business with… I am DONE. I am done. 

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My Testimony To Help Other Young Women: The Truth About Abortion Grief

The Truth About Abortion Grief

Revelation 21:4

English Standard Version

4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

A Few Years Ago.. 

A few years ago, I wrote a book of Poems dedicated to my angel baby. I was grieving so badly and battling depression, because I just had another baby but I began to wonder what it would feel like having him. I reached out to his father, which was a bad decision I might add… because I was grieving and it did not end well like it always does not end well. So I made the decision that I would never reach out again , but I also realized that God had entrusted me to help other young women who were grieving from having a abortion and suffering the rejection from the father. 

The Story Behind Your Decision Is Probably Really Painful 

One thing I am not going to do is , point a condemning finger at you because God did not point a condemning finger at me when I had a abortion. Yes, I felt like God was disappointed in me but at that time I did not know the Lord. I grew up in church but I saw so much craziness that I became an atheist, it was after that abortion and the pain and tears from it that I became a Christian. 

The circumstances surrounding my decision were extremely hurtful and painful, and it is something that even now God has to heal me from because I regret aborting that child because I know the child would have been beautiful and intelligent and that God had a plan for the baby, I made a mistake. But one thought that was eating away at me is that even if he did not love me (the father) and he did not want me, it’s the fact that God knew how much he did not want me and blessed me with a baby that did love me and I had a abortion… That’s the painful side of my decision. 

To this day, he still is the same and I don’t really care (the father). That’s how he is. But I realized that my constant reaching out to him is because I was so depressed by what I had done that I wanted some connection to the baby (I learned this in psychology). So I did not miss him, I missed the baby and the baby came from him. That was a very tough and hard realization that I had to come to and it came by praying and talking to God about my mistake. 

I recommend you to pray and ask God for forgiveness and repent, especially if you did not know the Lord. The truth about abortion’s is that it is extremely painful to deal with. Sad to say commercial’s lie and make it seem like taking the pill is a easy fixer for an abortion, but they are not telling you about the suicide attempts, depression, and self-harm that comes after having a abortion. 

Don’t Cover For Him 

I had to accept that he will never care about me (the father of the baby). I had to accept that he does not care about the abortion and he never will. I am the mom, and I battle all of the grief by myself. I am sorry if you are faced with that same truth. If he does not care about you and he does not care about the abortion, I want you to know that God cares a whole lot about you. I had to accept my truth and give it God. I do not want you to commit suicide . I remember when I wanted to die because I wanted to be in heaven with my baby because it’s really mentally tormenting and  traumatizing. I thought I would be happier in heaven with my baby. I do not want you to commit suicide. God told me I had to live on. You have to live on and you have to trust God , that he will bless you with another opportunity to have a baby. My opportunity was with Ruth and she has brought a lot of healing from the pain of not having my other baby. 

The hardest part is that before I ever admitted what happened prophet’s would come up ; to me and say , “God said forgive yourself it is not your fault”. Collapsing in the spirit, everytime I would scream and cry because it was so painful. Then I had a dream about him, that he was in heaven running and playing hide and go seek with Jesus. He was so beautiful he had my skin complexion, his father’s eyes, but they were dark blue, and dark beautiful curly black hair. He was gorgeous. God said in the dream, “Name him Nehemiah because I sent him to comfort you because you were not loved”. 

I went through alot, but now despite issues I accept what God has to offer me. My current husband said he wanted us to have another baby, and I know that God is going to bless me with another boy one day to comfort me from all of the painful things that occurred in that situation. 

The Conclusion Is Forgive Yourself 

God wants you to forgive yourself, turn from your sin, repent , and never do it again. God wants to heal you from the pain of the rejection that led to that abortion. God does not want you to commit suicide because the father did not love you , which led to you aborting that child. Sadly, men do not feel the grief that a woman feels after having a abortion. I am the mother so while he parties, I cry because I had the duty to carry that child and I failed in that. Even if you failed, I want you to know that God is giving you grace to start over and have another family. Take my advice, and do not ever reach out to him again. Do not ever check on him and see how he is doing again. Do not ever care about his well being again. I am sorry, but he doesn’t love you and you have to accept it and move on. I had to accept that he never wanted me and never cared about me, and it was painful but I accepted it and I moved on. Move on beautiful, it is going to be okay. 

Love Mixed With Faith, 

Apostle Diamond S. Chessier 

Isaiah 40:31

King James Version

31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

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Books On My Reading Radar

Books On My Scope 

Reading List

Hey everyone so here below are some books that I have put on my radar. I am a mommy so most days I do not have time to read . Yet, I have skimmed in passing and thought they were pretty cool books. I encourage reading over social media. So before these books you should always read The Holy Bible first. 

  • When Your World Falls Apart – Dr. David Jeremiah 

Background Story : So I first heard Dr. David Jeremiah on the radio when I was living in Maryland. I was going through a very dark time and then his voice came on the radio saying the exact thing that I was dealing with speaking life and not death. Then I bought his book as he was telling his story about having Cancer and how he survived it. I believe that his survival through cancer is an amazing testimony about God’s faithfulness in the midst of hard trials and storms. I see that he is about to do an amazing prophecy night in South Carolina, I will be watching live and it’s about the rapture. I hope God adds dozens of years to his life so that he can teach on this subject about the rapture because it is a very serious event. 

  • Matched and Married – Kathleen Fuller 

Background Story: So being a prophet I am super deep in very intune with the spirit realm and sometimes I need a break. I do not like studying demons all day and her books ease my mind from all the nonsense and warfare that occurs daily. So I read her books to balance me out. Her books are quirky and cute and I like them. I recommended them. I like Amish books because in my mind I am amish to escape bills (laughing out loud). 

  • The Spiritual Warrior’s Guide To Defeating The Jezebel Spirit – Jennifer LeClaire

Background Story : So I know about Jennifer LeClaire and her ministry. Her testimony has been helping me deal with something I currently am battling because it’s almost the same situation which is ironic to me… anyways. Her books definitely are an eye opener to the different principalities and demons that function in the church. If you believe in warfare it makes sense why you would buy her books.

 

  • Surrender : Surrendering It All To Gain It All – Roszien Kay Lewis (Roszien Kay Mason)

Background Story: So I met Roszien Mason a few years ago in Lancaster, California. She often testifies that people thought she was crazy but God said obey. If you know me you know I DO NOT listen to anyone who does not have fruit to match what they are saying. Roszien has good fruit. She has her Juris Doctor, She just passed her bar exam to become a lawyer in Indiana , and she recently married to her husband Bishop Mason who ordained her as a prophetess. She is a mother and step-mother. Like I said Roszien has fruit.  I have been doing ALOT of thinking and I started to make a decision to pay attention to what she says because obviously she knows something about trusting God. I am definitely going to read it. 


  • The Power Of A Praying Woman : Stormie Omartian 

Background Story: Not even going to lie, her books got me through some things when I was being persecuted in the Marines. Not even lying. I went through a dark season in the Marines and I did not have a choice but to get out because I was given an order to remove a female body part, which goes against what The Holy Bible says (Leviticus 18:22). That was a dark time for me and I could not understand why but God said to pray. I came across her book and it taught me how to pray and believe what I was praying for. I recommend it. 

Bibles: I recommend reading the ERV version for those who do not really understand the KJV. The KJV is a very ancient bible and for someone it can be difficult but I always recommend reading the Bible over a book.

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