A woman feeling like she can’t find a good man. 

A woman feeling like she can’t find a good man. 

So don’t be too good or too wise! Why destroy yourself? – Ecclesiastes 7:16

God Works Everything Out For The Good

Recently, I met this very beautiful male police officer. He was gorgeous to be honest and he looked very clean and neat in his role as a police officer. He had very nice teeth and was very kind and understanding and then he went on his way. I did not say anything to him about what I was thinking, but I really began to rethink everything I believed in. As you all know, I didn’t really like police officers because of what I saw growing up. But then God reminded me that I almost became a military police officer and I have been involved with military men in the past. 

Being a marine veteran, I can say that I am a very strong woman. I have survived the toughest battles and the strongest storms. I remember one time, I even walked through tornado winds and it was God that kept me through that. Yet honestly, I pray I never have to go through that again with some things I just do not need multiple tests in.. lol. 

What I am about to say is not from an obsession but an observation. While looking at him and how in shape he was and his beautiful and amazing physical stature, I realized that it is extremely difficult to find a good man. Many men try to talk to me daily, but I am never interested in them because they do not meet my criteria. I want a man that has a job and a good career, stability can provide a stable home and place to live. I want a man that is educated and intelligent. I want a man that is strong either military styled or police officer styled. I want a man with a good job. I do not want a man that I feel like I am emotionally stronger or physically stronger than. I want a strong man.

I Do Not Relate To These Other Women  

I do not understand these other women and how they try everything to take away a man’s masculinity. I have a lot of issues with feminine men and I constantly have to correct them and put them in their place. That is one major reason I could not stand the marines, they are the world’s strongest group of feminine men who like to argue with women. There is no way I would ever let a sissy man defeat me. That would never happen. Anyways, I do not understand why these women want soft men who get their nails done, wear man purses and side bags, and soft men who paint their nails. I cannot stand when a man crosses his legs. I hate it because it’s soft and shows weakness. I hate that when a man talks with a light voice, and cries , and I can not stand an emotionally weak and sensitive man. 

I look at this generation of men and I can say that it is honestly embarrassing. But what is even worse is the women who are lawmakers who make laws to try and destroy men because they do not share the same opinion as them which is insanity, thankfully God blocks them and stops them from doing what they want. 

Do not give your strength to women, your ways to those who destroy kings. – Proverbs 31:3 

As a woman God made me to have a husband. Yet, in the midst of separation and headed toward divorce I am very concerned about who my next husband will be because trust me I have options. Yet God tells me, “fear has no future here”. I do not want a man that is a musician and records all day on tik tok and social media. I do not want a man that is trying to become the next DJ or party promoter. I want a grown man with a grown man mentality. I am thinking that maybe my next husband is a police officer ( I am not saying it’s the police officer I met, I am talking in general). I do not think I could do another military man but maybe my next husband is in the military. Like I said I have options. As I am rediscovering myself.. I realized that I did not fit in because I wanted a real strong man. I wanted a man that other women wanted to destroy. I wanted a man that was strong, could provide, and could take care of me as a woman. I am so sick of seeing soft and emotional men online. I am sick of seeing grown men dressing immaturely and watching anime like a child. A grown man watching anime and cartoons and having anime cups and magazines which shows weakness and again softness. I am tired of immaturity, the softness, and weakness in this generation of men. 

Moving Forward 

I am not going to lie.. Years ago before I even met my husband God told me this day would come.  I did not understand why God would rip certain relationships away from me but now I see why. What I have learned over the years is that when you are dealing with a soft man (especially in the church) they can do some very evil things to you because they themselves are cowards and they are weak. I knew that God was calling me at a young age to be a wife to a strong man and I allowed people in the church to detour me from that and I regret it. Now here I am about to 30 questioning everything that I believe in about marriage. God knew this day would come and he did warn me and I had to learn the hard way. God understood me before I understood myself as a woman ; the way a real father should. Yes, in the past I had to fistfight men to protect myself and I always won. I have been jumped and always won. I have been caught in the middle of gang shootouts in Chicago, Illinois. I have been kicked out of summer camp in south side Chicago for fighting. I have almost been arrested multiple times for fighting . All of that has made me tough as I am. Now going through that and being with a weak man is like living a nightmare. So.. if you are a woman reading this, trust me you are not alone and feeling like you need a supernatural move of God to have a husband because all the men are soft , weak, and gay. If you are a man reading this do not let anyone make you feel bad for being a strong man. 

Sincerely Susanna, 

P.S. I have legally changed my name to Susanna.