Sis… DO NOT marry a pastor from a pastor’s wife…
The Voice5 Whether this nation of rebels listens or refuses to listen to My message, at least they will know a prophet has visited them. 6 Do not fear them or their words, son of man. Though you will dwell among the thistles and briars of their hostility, though their reactions will make you think you’re sitting on scorpions, do not be afraid. Pay no attention to their threats, and don’t let their glaring faces intimidate you. They are a rebellious lot. 7 It is vital you feed them My words, whether they choose to digest them or not, for they are a rebellious people.
God Told Me Not To Marry Him
When we first met, he was not who he is now. But now I realize that people pretend and you don’t know who someone is until you marry them. When we met he was taking me shopping, buying purses, giving me money, roses, and anything I wanted. I felt like I was being romanced and treated like a Queen. That’s what he would call me … Queen. He moved me into his house after I felt like God said to get my own home. He tells me that that is not what God wanted me to do. After I had a terrible dream that moving into the home with him and his family would be a nightmare it came to pass. I warned him in secret that I did not want to live with him because of his family and he told me that something was playing with my mind. But now I can honestly say I hate him and his family.
One, I met his mother first and she is an alleged false pastor and apostle. She is always homeless and yet playing the victim. She began to teach that Christian’s belonged in concentration camps and I was not in agreement. When she said she was constantly kicked out of churches and asked to leave, I thought she was persecuted. No… she is really crazy like straight jacket crazy. She lied on me every day. Took my flowers and pretended for them to be hers on Facebook. Everyday something was wrong. So many times, she told him things would be better if I left and that I ruined his previous marriage. If that wasn’t enough his brother liked me and became angry because I did not like him and later jumped me and I had to fight him because I was not attracted to him. I really do hate my soon to be ex-husband. In that home I lost over $5,000 because he wouldn’t pay me when I helped him. It started with me helping him with his work. That is $5,000 that I worked myself off! for! I discovered he was still sending his ex-wife money after he gave her $20,000 and saved for three kids and two don’t even belong to him $15,000 for school. But this is what is crazy about that. He told me she had a drug problem. I’m thinking of weed… Nah. This idiot is a coke head and heroin head. She is on hard core drugs. Why does he financially support a druggie?? I have no idea.
So, his ex-wife is a crack head getting passed around in Baltimore at a crack house for drugs. He’s paying for her bills and won’t help me financially. That is only the beginning. I found out that I was pregnant he says his first thought was abortion. Then tells me he doesn’t know how he is going to explain this to his other daughter (as if she is so special but she’s not). So, I give birth prematurely and my baby is born sick. He did NOT help prepare for her but he drove over 3 hours to drop off a bag of $15 hair for his other daughter to get her hair braided but didn’t help me ONE time prepare for my daughter. He leaves me in the hospital after I give birth (after I found tons of pornography in his phone) the day I give birth. When my baby is sick and I have to rush her to the emergency room, he tells me he has to stop and get dog food for his daughter’s dog (that’s why it’s dead now). So I had to rush my baby in a lyft to the ER. He wouldn’t move me after the house was inhabitable and he almost got us evicted because he tried to take the landlord to escrow and wouldn’t pay him rent after I TOLD HIM to pay rent.
Now God told me to leave him when I was pregnant but I was afraid because I was pregnant and didn’t know what to do. Yes, he took me on trips. Yes, he took me on vacations but IT WAS NOT WORTH IT! Many days I wished he wasn’t my daughter’s father. So, I had to work overnight shifts, two weeks after giving birth to take care of my daughter because HE WOULD NOT HELP! Because he was purposely trying to keep me from leaving him so he did not want me to have any money coming in at all.
He was a youth pastor at a mega-church in Baltimore. He was about to become associate pastor. But I told him that God said that that was not a good position for him and I was right. Because it quickly blew up in his face. If that wasn’t enough, he had a business and when I was pregnant, I literally listened to him outside the door (he didn’t know I was there) flirt with one of his customers. This is crazy because when I was pregnant, I had SO MANY MEN staring and trying to talk to me. Like one just randomly came and asked to rub my stomach in the store I dealt with a lot but because I was pregnant, I didn’t cheat.
So after he begs and cries for me to give him another chance. I tell him I want a divorce and there is nothing to talk about . He does not pay rent on time , he never repaid the $5,000 I lost, but he gave his ex-wife $20,000. If that wasn’t enough I found out his car actually has his ex-wife name on it. See that is news to me because I was under the impression that he bought both cars himself …. NOPE ! But what can you expect from a liar? IF that wasn’t enough his mother and his ex-wife worked together to ruin my birthday when I was pregnant and he finds a way to make my birthday all about him and how he doesn’t like that I feel some type of way on my birthday. Now I have constantly told this fool to get out of my house and give me my house key. But NOPE ! He just won’t do it. So here I am stuck because I fought his brother and I caused a lot of damage when the police were about to arrest me and his mother almost pressed charges on me because of it. So if I fight he can call the police and I could lose my baby. Sis is stuck. But if that wasn’t enough, on my baby birthday I caught his daughter teasing and taunting my baby and I wanted to punch her head through the wall but I kicked her out. Because again I already got one case and I can’t lose my baby if I go to jail. So his daughter is not allowed in my house. I have told him over and over again to go live somewhere else now all of sudden I pretended to love him, it’s so easy to leave and then he wants to bring up someone I spoke to last year. But my thing is how do you have the audacity to be mad that I was messaging and reconnecting with someone else when you have done all of this? One, my baby daddy asked me for another chance last year, I should have said yes instead of dealing with his crazy behind. And now this fool mad because I want to leave? Sis I refuse to be a dummy. After praying God told me that a lot of women are idiots. They stay in toxic relationships like this ALL THE TIME in ministry and in church. But baby Diamond won’t. I have too much going for myself. I will not.
I do not agree with how he is raising his other daughter. She uploaded a really disgusting and nasty video for a little girl onto YouTube. See Ruth would never try me like that because I will really beat her butt. My daughter is spoiled but what I am not going to do is let her be nasty for YouTube at an early age. That is not going to happen. Now, his ex-wife take’s all the child support money and uses it for crack-cocaine and has the nerve to sue both of her children’s fathers for more money (child support) to support her cocaine problem. I’m done with it. Because when she runs out of money for a cocaine problem, she calls the police and I’m not dealing with it because the police can keep trying me but I will fight them especially over my daughter. It takes a lot to make me angry but I’m not scared of anybody. But what is crazy is that his ex-wife serves in ministry at Greater Grace World Outreach in Baltimore. They have her doing pictures and programs and she is a whole cocaine addict and meth head. Again… GOD TOLD ME NOT TO MARRY HIM!!!! I Should have listened!!!
But if that was not enough. His mother is sleeping with her spiritual daughter (whom I had to fight). How nasty is that ? You literally are in a relationship with another woman and telling people that she is your spiritual daughter ?!!!! She is going to hell. His mother stole his identity and opened a loan in his name. GOD TOLD ME NOT TO MARRY HIM !!!!!
Honestly, Ra’keem is the biggest mistake of my life. I should have never married him. Me and my baby would have been fine without him. What bothers is me is that religion, said Ra’keem. Religious people said Ra’keem because he was a pastor. I should have married someone that I loved and let God do the work. I would have rather been happy than been with Ra’keem. It bothers me because Ra’keem is upset because I miss my ex? Fool do you know what you have done? If that was not enough now we have to go to court for custody. All of a sudden, he want’s joint custody??? This fool wanted me to abort her but now he sees that because I have over 1 million views on YouTube he want’s joint custody… Is he crazy??? This fool is NOT about to have my baby with a cocaine head child and her meth head problems. The devil is a lie. The opportunity presented itself. I should have taken it. Because he NEVER did this to me. It is crazy because the person who asked me for another chance is not a pastor but I swear I truly believe he would not have done this. I should have let God do work for that other person. Moral of the story. Do not marry a pastor. I have heard so many horror stories of first ladies and what they secretly go through. But as a first lady I promise you I am going to sprint to my divorce. I heard many women say do not pursue a pastor because it is not what you think. I would do anything to get another chance with God and rewind time. I had to make this statement because God has revealed what is to come. One, I am a prophetess and I will not let Ra’keem and his family ruin my honorable reputation of being a prophetess. I am very aware of what they are going to do but I boldly say and declare that has nothing to do with me. When Ra’keem and I divorce he is responsible for his own decisions and I cannot be accountable for his choices and actions. His daughter is no longer my step-daughter, I am not responsible for her. I want nothing to do with raising her. Never again! Again…. DO NOT MARRY A PASTOR!
A Future Ex-Wife To A Pastor